michi
Independence day or free not to
Jul 04, 2009
The 4th fell on a Saturday so I had Friday the 3rd off from work as well. I had looked into some possible events but all fell through so I spent the 4th declaring my independence by cleaning the house. Which was actually a good thing. You see my girls are out of town with my sister for the summer and I have, short of working, much wanted free time on my hands and though I do not wish to spend it doing housework it's nice to have gotten much of it done and see it stay done for a change. It was a climatically beautiful day. Sun shinning, windows open, smell of barbquing, fireworks going off beautiful day. Funny thing is I wasn't too concerned with not going to any cookouts. See I don't eat much, if I can finish a half cup at anyone time it's amazing and I find the food always smells better these days then it actually taste. Sometimes I think my taste buds don't work anymore. As much as I relish the lost of weight and look forward to reaching my goal, I kind of miss the emotional joy I once got from eating. That physical feeling of fullness that I just don't get from eating now, I even miss the feeling of having stuffed myself sometimes. Ahh to eat one whole cheese burger with bun, a couple of barbgued ribs, a hot dog and some mac and cheese. I found taking 30 mintues to finish a meal is not the hard part I actually like eating out and slowing down how fast I finish, but chewing a gazillion times until all the flavor is gone before I can finally swallow, now that's hard, it seems to take something away from the whole reason for eating. But I do find it easier to eat slower when I'm out with others then when I'm eating alone or at home.I used to look forward to eating events and now I'm not as thrilled. My girl friend invited me to Wings N Things and I thought to myself , Why? so I can have a wing and maybe a thing. Not that I can't enjoy the just being there. Last month my job did their annual values day event which included barbque and I had a cheese burger, no bun, a few bites, grilled chicken a few bites, macaroni salad a few bites, cole slaw a few bites, the hot dogs were nasty, no bites and a Mr Softee ices. Thing is the company was good as was the food for the most part although I had maybe a 12 cup in total. Last week I went to a kids bitrthday party in the park. I had some mac and cheese it was delicious, a meatball, some rice, some chicken a 3 bean salad hadn't had that in a long time, it was also good, she knew about my surgery so she put maybe a tablespoon of each, which of course I still couldn't finish. So for the 4th of July I cleaned, watched a movie ate a piece of baked fish, a half bag of microwaved popcorn and too many ices to count. Independence: the freedom not to have to.......anything.
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cuba, NY
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28.2
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04/27/2009
Surgery Date
Jun 02, 2009
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