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My husband and daughter joined me at the hospital.
Pre-op prep was quick.  Before you know it, I was transferring to the table.  That's all I remember.  Don't remember recovery at all.  Don't remember going to my room.  I remember hearing my husband and daughter's voices saying everything was fine and they'd see me tomorrow.

1st night was hard, but the nurses were soo good!  They were so responsive and helpful.  1st day seemed like it too forever.  Everything was in 2 hour intervals.

Something happened and they had to give me insulin... they said my blood sugar went from 105 to 185. Just one dose.  But they kept checking it.

More later.

Today is the day I've planned for since 10/26/09 (the first seminar for WLS).
Today is the day I've thought about, given serious consideration to and prayed about.
Today I'm going to be calm, everything will go perfectly and I will feel happy and relaxed knowing this serves my highest good.

I made all my calls to my friends and family letting them know I'm ready. Everyone is wishing the best for me as I start my new life.  Plus so many of my friends here on OH site have written.  It is a great blessing to have such friends as YOU!!!! Thank you.

I have not weighed myself, so I don't know the total results of my pre-op liquid diet.  That was a journey, but it served it's purpose.  I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I can begin carefully eating food again in one week or so.  I start stage 2 after the first doctor's visit post surgery.

My 11 y/o daughter was supposed to go to school today, but she came to bed with me and said, "Mom, I really want to be at the hospital with you, for support.  I'll be good and quiet and read.  I'll be worried all day if I'm not close to you. Mommy I love you."  My heart melted.  I said OK.  Sometimes lessons are learned outside of the classroom.  Today is one of those instances.

I am going to pack my bags, get everything my friends here on OH help told me to pack., but I'm not going to overpack. 

 I'm ready for the next part of the climb.

Hugs to all.

See you on the other side,

~D~

Can I just say how tired I am right now?  I cut the grass in the front lawn.  I cleaned the dog room.  Cleaned out the temporary chicken coop.  Threw in a load of laundry.  Made dinner.  Cleaned up the mess.  Straightened out the house... and all that after a full day of training!!!!!

I am just overwhelmed right now feeling like I need to try to do everything that needs to be done.... THIS WEEKEND because I'm going to be unavailable for the next few weeks. 

Am I wrong?  Should I slow down?  Or should I just consider this aerobic exercise??? No... I'm pushing myself really, really hard right now...

I'm going to make my shake and sit my happy A$$ down for a few minutes.  Then, get the daughter ready for her spring concert tomorrow.  Go to Walmart and get a new pair of jammies and slippers, underwear etc.

Sunday, I'm going to ride my bike and pack my bags.

Surgery is Sunday @ 12:15pm.  Sooo much more to write.  Maybe I'll continue after I get something to drink in my system.  A protein shake that is...

~D~

Yes, I know what the scale says... it's good news.

But today I put on a pair of pants, a pair of brown cords that I've used for two winters.  Size 24.  They are big on me.  No... not just a little bit big... like baggy big.

I have probably lost 15 - 17 pounds.  My wedding ring was so loose, that it started to slip off my fingers.

This isn't my 'real' wedding ring... it's the anniversary ring my husband bought me.  It's a size 9 - 10.  It was because my wedding ring was too tight 5 years after we got married.

While my 'real' wedding ring lays waiting in the safety deposit box... I moved my anniversary ring to my right hand and it was still loose... so I moved it to my index finger.

For the last few years, when I put clothes on... I felt how tight they were.  How snug my arms were.  How they were tight on my thighs.  Shopping for clothes was not fun.

I have given up food for 12 days and I see a radical difference.  I absolutely can not wait for the next small piece of my journey.

Should I buy a better scale?  Should I get one that calculates my BMI?  Should it know my name?  I've thought and shopped on line for a good scale.

But today, for once in a VERY long time... I don't need a scale to tell me how I feel about myself.  Today... I am at my first little marker.  Like stacked rocks on the mountain trail.  Cairns that point a direction to travellers.  I have made a committment to a path and I'm up for the climb.

Join me.

~D~

Well, week 1 of all liquick pre-op diet.  No food.  Yeah, that's right.  NO FOOD!!! I was ok until Friday night.  That's when we always go out to dinner.  ALWAYS.  Hubby called and said he was taking my daughter out to dinner.  Didn't want to tempt me.  I know... he's sweet.  But I hated him at that moment.  I wanted to cry. 

Come on now.  Stiff upper lip.  Keep it together, woman.  Breathe deeply.  WAH!!!!! I got angry that I couldn't eat.  I got really angry. 

I went to Ocean State Job lots and walked around.  I put gas in the car.  I chewed some sf gum.  Not his fault.  Not his fault.  This is my choice.  I'm committed to this.  I can make it work.  I can do this... sooo many thoughts running around my mind.

I got hypnosis the Saturday before I started my 2 week pre-op diet.  If it's weren't for that, I think I would have given in.  But my thought was how great I'm going to look when I get into my horse riding clothes and easily get up on my new horse.  OK, I don't have a horse right now, but I will.  I WILL!!

My guided imagery kept me strong.  And I went to my primary care physician on Thursday.  The nurse was going to set my weight.  I said... two sixty somethin. And she said no... 258.  Cool. 

Today, I went to see my WLS doctor for the final check before surgery. I weighed in at 253.  So... I've lost 12 pounds.

Wow!!!  It's true.  It's new.  It's now.

~D~

Shake shake shake... shake shake shake... shake your protein!

Well, I found I like my protein blended with milk and ice, not in the protein shaker.  They are not horrible.  I keep pretending I'm drinking a $7 smoothie from Robecks with protein.  I put my shake in a Dunkin Donuts coffee cup and no one even suspects I'm drinking Bariatric Advantage strawberry shake!

I crave the salty stuff tho.  You know I'm not a chocolate lover.  I'm a salty lover.  When I ge that feeling, specially lunch or dinner time, I make me up a cup of broth.  I like the Herb Ox.  Really good. But that wan't cutting it.  So I needed some broth intervention.

So last night, I made like 3 cups of broth, added cilantro, garlic, pepper and cumin.  Yummy!  I brought that for lunch today. 

I've noticed I'm pee-ing alot more, and I believe I'm losing alot of water weight.  Haven't stepped on the scale yet, but will tomorrow for my hospital pre-op inteview/bloodwork/ekg/urine test.

Write back if you have any other good ideas for broth intervention! :) LOL.

I am weaning myself off the caffeine.  I found some decaf Hazelnut coffee and you know what... it's not bad! So... I'm still starting easy but tomorrow I officially kick off my '2 week pre-op diet'.  I have a few more appointments like registering at the hospital, taking final bloodwork, seeing my Primary Health Care Provider etc.  But things are going very smoothly. 

I'm going to try to get some exercise in today.  We have been building a chicken coop and that has been very physically demanding for me.  It's coming along well.

I'm wondering who, if anyone, at work I will tell.  I have just told them I'm going out on FMLA and will return in 4 -6 weeks.  Write to me and tell me who you told.

I picked up my Bariatric Advantage shakes on Thursday.  Had my first one on Friday (strawberry).  I used a protein shaker and water.  Then two low cal, low fat, low carb meals.  The consistency didn't work well for me, but I got it down.   They say the longest journey begins with the first step and I took mine.  Saturday I had my second shake. Banana, using 1/2 a banana, lactaid skim milk, ice and it was great!  I technically don't have to start my two week pre-op diet till Monday and I wanted to ease into it before I have to do it at work.  I'm proud of my beginning and looking forward to so much more.