Things I won't miss...

Having just recovered from an unusually bad episode of hypoglycemia, that included symptoms such as these: blindness in both eyes, instead of just one (the kind that makes a huge spot in your eyes like you've just had your photo taken), heavier sweating than usual, lightheadedness, feeling spacey, heart racing...etc  I decided that I'd like to post a list of all the wonderful things my first surgery gave me that I won't be missing.

First would have to be the afore mentioned hypoglycemia. It's been more and more frequent and more severe. It has no reason or rhyme, nothing in particular sets it off and the solution for it? Eat sugar. What does sugar do? You got it..see below.

Next would be the lovely dumping which is a hit and miss-one day something bothers me, next day: who knows?

The wonderful vomiting from a blind pouch is also a treat-stuff goes in, feels fine-then *puke* half hour later.

The spasms are a nice touch too, I love not even being able to swallow my saliva..maybe I should have taken up chewing tobacco...hmmmm? At least people wouldn't wonder why I was spitting all the time.

Then there are the lovely regifts of liquid that come shooting back up my throat for no reason in particular no matter that there is nothing else in my stomach to keep it from proceeding on through my digestive tract.

Most of all, I am NOT going to miss the shame, guilt, depression, self loathing, feelings of failure and all the pounds my surgery allowed me to regain.  Also the nice way I was given a huge surgery, and ever so nicely kicked to the curb with no follow-up Yep-"Here's your surgery, have a nice life".

Nope-I've done my research (And continue to do so), done the footwork, made the calls and made the best choice-the DS is going to give my life back to me and dammit I'm going to start living it!!

Thanks for listening~I'm not usually hot-headed, but I am fed up and tired of this crap!

Have a lovely day all..... (smirk)

In Love and Light,
Robin

LOL.

Not that what you suffer is funny, but your timing is amazing. I was just about to post that classic two week freak post! You have reminded me why I do not want the RNY, now I just need to remember why I do want the DS!

Thanks!

LOL- It's ok, I'm not "that" mad-just grateful that it'll be over in a month. I know it's going to be hard in the beginning, but I also know- unlike my first surgery-IT WILL GET BETTER!!!!

Try not to freak too much-that's my job..LOL..I have longer to freak out tho..yikes!!

*hugs*
Have a great night!
In Love and Light,
Robin

Wow,girl I bet you wished you would have chosen the Ds sooner,but dont worry the DS is on the way and you will be so much happier! I just wish i would have done mine sooner,Best of luck to you!Hugs Trish

Thanks Trish!

Better late than never right? I'm just glad that I'm being given a second chance. This time last year I thought that there was no hope....now look...it won't be long now:)

Love and Light to Ya!
Robin

This needs to be bookmarked! You certainly have a story to tell...one that should be heard by every preop and newbie researching surgery options!

If I can help just one person....so the cliche goes. But I'm serious, I wouldn't wish any of this on ANYONE~ Not even the one person I dislike the most (And that's a lot!). If I ever wrote down the specifics about how things went in the first year, of all the things I had to figure out myself, and all the unneccesay pain I went through because of my surgeons ignorance...well, it'd be pretty damn long.

I was thinking about this time a year ago, when I met someone who had just gotten an RNY- I actually cried the first time I met her and actually BEGGED her to PLEASE BE CAREFUL!  Well, she's just over a year out and gaining back already...nuf said...

Thanks for your response~
Have a beautiful night,

In Love and Light,
Robin

Except for the dumping, I could have written this about my VBG. I've spent the last 22 years wondering if the single bite of sandwich is going to go down "this time" ... or if I'm going to have to excuse myself half way through Thanksgiving dinner again because the turkey wasn't smothered in enough gravy and is now stuck at the bottom of my pouch.

I don't have to tell you how many times my own saliva has made me puke, because something was stuck down there, clogging the opening to my "real" stomach.

Shame ... yes. Guilt ... yes.

I'm so glad you've got your approval and your date. I just know 2009 will be a banner year for you.

Thanks for your response Kathy-and Kudos on choosing Dr G.! He rocks! I'm so glad your choosing the DS- we deserve a better life than we have had for all these years. *hugs*

In Love and Light,
Robin

I am so glad you are getting this chance. I have a friend of mine at work who got her RNY right after I got my DS. I found out about her plans too late to have her consider the DS as she had already paid most of a $1500 Dr fee that was non refundable. well suffice it to say that she had her surgery, has a leak, and has been in pain ever since. They even hospitalized her but her surgeon was on vacation and they made excuses that they wanted to see if it would heal on it's own!
She finally has just had an appointment with Dr Greenbaum for a second opinion.
What makes me so mad is that there is not enough information out there about all of our options from the start.
I understand that there can be complications with any surgery, but it is a crime that people are not even made aware of all their choices. I am so sad that you had to go through this in the past but glad that you are going to be getting your life back.


Jacqui