Dr says getting to the NORMAL WEIGHT Category will make me look GAUNT?!

It could easily be true, I've was at a "normal" BMI when I was working 50 hours a week and attending college fulltime (way overworked) and I dropped to 145 (at 5'4") I DID look gaunt and was super tired all the time. I don't ever want to be that thin again ... but 10-15 heavier than that would be perfect.

I really wish I had a picture of myself from that time to compare to a picture of me when I was at what I consider to be my perfect weight.