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yearly checkup on October 8, 2008 9:55 pm
I got the results back from last months yearly blood work,,, Doc is really happy with me all my numbers are wonderful they kept saying perfect....I have had a couple rough months with alot of swelling in the begining of Aug.. I ate a cold hot dog and I went down hill from there. Alot of progressive swelling the kind that never goes away.
The changes ar amazing, 3 coworkers just got the band this last month , I am really happy for them. They are doing great. I feel great I am ready to commit more to the exercise part of it. Serious every day stuff..... good luck all.
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starting my new year on August 24, 2008 3:57 pm
So Jim and I thought by starting over at zero pounds lost this year would be good,,,,, its still zero. I am due for a fill on Friday, I already post pones the one on the 8th of Aug. I dont think I could do well with a fill, I get stuck now and I have to watch and be very careful, it doesnt mean the pounds are melting off faster, I may go just to see doc at my years point. I feel like I am at my minds limit. I am doing all I can. We have been walking this month like never before.
We went on vacation to Wi for a wedding and Just got back from a Vacation in Colorado to Estes Park. 1st day we walked about 3 hours 2 nd day about 5 hours and 2.5 hours were walking around thier lake for 3.5 miles. It was awsome. the last day was avout 3 hours of walking and we swam 2 times water walking. When we got home we walked down to the end of our main street, it was 1.50 hours and 4.5 miles. waiting for the scale to move, telling myself building muscle but not sure.......but I know I am 75 pounds down and my new lowest number was 300.8... it just wont give it to me........grrr.......
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1 year on August 9, 2008 2:38 pm
1 year past and 75 pounds down. I feel great, the energy is through the roof. There are so many " a year ago I wouldnt of.......", Best wishes to all. Sandy in Kansas
in the new pic......These clothes were new but my mind doesnt let buy smaller yet.... but these are the first wal-mart pants I have bought in about 6-7 years...they are too big. I bought a 26-28,, probly should of bought 22-24 I think,,, we were at a wedding in Kenosha Wi for 4 days...a year ago I would not of thought of going...!! I am glad I did.
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feeling great on July 2, 2008 3:56 pm
Wow still mowing and enjoying it......never thought I would say that. I really thought that I would get over it..you know welp I'm done....  ,,,,but I really do feel good. While I am mowing I tell my self, can you believe it.... I am mowing and Jim doesnt have to. I have been scraping and sanding the inside doors to paint them all white to match.... I spend a bit of time in the garage each day, today I had a bit of rough patch I went and got some stripper to take off the rest. Tomorrow I will paint it.
I am still not walking when I work really hard, its rough to get my mind around. I feel that if I mow for well over an hour, push mower to ME...right now my mind says that is good,,, I can say that when we do walk 3-5 times a week, we are trying to get in a whole hour. A couple weeks ago we actually went through neighborhoods.. I have never done that. When I walk alone I do my 2 block street, I just go up and down for the whole time. I feel safe. When JIm goes we usually go down to the park and around the church. The neighborhood thing was nice we got to see different things and the time flew by. I was always to self concious (SP) to go around town.
I am getting very excited with my year coming up in August. I am down 71 pounds. I am hoping for 80 for the year mark, but not making any goals, no disappointment here if I dont. 71 pounds gone,,, wow,,,, I never dreamed.....Still to this day I feel like I am still on step 1...... waiting... the waiting is over my friend, I am living.
there is so many NSV, I cant keep track. We are fishing too.... Jim is so good with me. I just love him so,, there are days when we relish over ther nsv that have passed and the simple things that were so very hard for me to do.
Right now,
I wake about 830 I hydrate until 1145 I have a carnation breakfast, SF,,, or something very small, soup, leftovers about 1\2 cup if its solid food.
then I have a snack about 2-3, something from the fridge 3/4 cup of food maybe.
then supper,,, sometimes I cook but dont eat it depends on what I snack on at 200.
it has been weird the few times Jim has ate alone, I sit with him though.
good luck to all on this journey.
wow, on June 7, 2008 9:22 pm
Well I have had an very busy, awsome month, I hadnt post in a while, due to mowing yards, redoing a hall and front forier (SP),. I am down 68 pounds and plateued for about 1.5 months,,, Had my fill appointment Thursday 6-5-2008 and got .20 cc.... Doc thinks I am where I will live for a long time I had lost 10,,, she was very pleased with that and very happy about my energy level. I am up and doing,,,, but learned at my support group meeting that mowing and doing yard work for 1.5 hours does not knock off exercise. I still have to walk 30-40.  ... so far I have learned
the point of getting the band is not to figure out what can fit through the band~
its about Moving...
its about living.....
its about eating less amounts fewer times a day......
Yesterday ,10 months out, I was riding home in our car ,husband was driving,,,, I said Self...
I wish I could just eat today, just 1 day,, what ever I wanted,,,, the addiction feeling was so strong I felt like a Alcoholic with my hand on the liquor store door.... the need to over eat,,,,, then I said self..... that is why the band is working for me,,, I lived for years,, I'll just eat today... just one more day.... I'll start tomorrow,,,,,,Self knows now with the band working I will not have days that I can have 3000-5000 calorie days..... this was my 6th fill appointment and I do believe it will continue to work for me.
my goal now
cook less food to keep in the fridge just in case.....
know that it is ok not to eat everytime my husband does....today 6-7-2008
was the first time I made a meal and didnt eat,,, I cooked pork chops and an okra melody, for lunch for husband, he ate while we watched a bit of tv,,,, a couple hours after I asked if it bothered him he said as I did it was very strange, but he was proud of me for not eating when I was not hungry.
move, move move, I love the energy that I have just after 68 pounds down I cant imagine when I have lost even more...
We have began to fish this week,,, at the first place we went we hiked around the bend on a small state lake... upon returning to the car,,, I spoke out loud and said , JIM., 4 years ( thats when I started studying the band) ago I would have never did that,,, I would of let my husband make 4 trips to the car, I would of maybe been able to get myself over there. let alone chairs poles ice mug and coolers....
I have to mentaly focus on my life and my marrige, I can not let anything do any harm to either one,
I have spent too long on other people in my life,,,,,Letting go I cant do,,,, moving on I try every day.
I do have a rough day, swelling. PB"s and some sticking ,,scratching a bit of pain sometimes but doc thinks I need to chew a bit better smaller bites and so on,,,,, I do think since the small adjustment this week that has gotten better..... time will tell ( but not enough pain to every make me think it was not worth it.... it only last seconds.
my year is up in 2 months,,,, I have never had a goal of 100 in a year,,,I think 68 is a wonderful number,,,, for someone that never though I could loose 20 let alone 68,,, and for someone that was going to die of diabetes and now has no signs of it,,,,,,,,, I am pleased
2 months 30 pounds that s 15 pounds a month almost out of reach,,, but it sure would be ~cool~ to say 100 in a year,,,, but I am in this to win it so that doesnt matter,,, it matters that I am reversing my whole life,,, by one pound at a time.....I dont concern myself too much with the after thoughs of skin or plastic surgery... that is still 3-4 years away,,, I am enjoying today...... good luck to all on this road!!! Sandy in Kansa
The bra on May 2, 2008 10:59 am
Several months ago we went to a fashion bug store that was going out of business. I bought 2 bras that by no means fit didnt even come close to going around me but the clearence price was so good I bought 2. I hadnt looked at them since.... today for what ever reason, I tried one on and the fit... good too not too tight just right. I am so excited it has been many YEARS since I had a bra that fit good. I had resorted to the sports bra but they didnt hold me up too well,,, but to me sagging is better than you shoulders being cut off or wires cutting into you!!!
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changes on May 1, 2008 9:09 pm
I have been changing, and very busy,, I have been working outside for hours at a time,,, getting the yard caught back up after at least 4 years of neglect. This week I have been walking and pulling endless weeds and mowing and digging up butterfly bushes and replanting 4 new ones, I seperated the root. I pray they grow. I planted tomato plants and some cukes and watermelon... for the last week at least I have been really goning all day strong.
I almost dont want to work, I have things to do,,, walks, weeds,,, sun... tonight be hubby got hom I had already mowed it all looked so nice!! he was pleased. Yesterday we got the stump dug out....so now we can tree shop and get some shade back on our house. ..
argued with my friend this week, and my mom, and I called my niece that had the baby she said she will call back but she didnt,,,,, thats ok I know I tried to call...
let my neightbor know I didnt like her puppy left tied to the tire. she is probably mad at me....
I am struggling, I know I am CHANGING,,,, in regaurds to me THEY are changing also I dont feel that every disagreement is my fault, all the time,,, I am not just going to agree to agree anymore.
went to dinner for Jarrod tonight it was Nice is is home on leave from Iraq.
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stove top stuffing meatloaf on May 1, 2008 11:02 am
Okay my Neighbor gave me this recipe this morning, I made them right up for lunch
1 pound of xtra lean,, or ground turkey or ground chicken
2 egg whites
1 cup of water
1 box of stove top stuffing,, traditional or the flavor you like.
350 for 30 min!
mix well, you can make 1 big loaf, or 3 small loaf and freeze it uncooked or cooked.
or you can make 12 muffins.
I used
1.25 lb xtra lean
2 whole eggs,,, I need the calories.
1cup of water
1 box of the sage stove top....
I didnt add salt or pepper or onion,,,, just what it says!
I made muffins..I used my 1\4 cup measuring and got 12 muffins ( meat balls kinda)
did I like them?,,, very much I ate one by itself and Yum... wasnt sure if I was full so ate another,,, I was full very full too full,, it was great and good lean protien,
I will be making more,, maybe with the turkey, she said to make them up, freeze them on a cookie sheet and then in zip lock bag then just pull out what you want in the mornings.
Thanks neighbor!
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today was marvelous! on April 18, 2008 7:26 pm
Jim and I were both home we did breakfast the shaved and bathed the 2 pekingese,,, they are happy babies... I stayed busy all day longI had a short rest in themid afternoon for few minutes....for over 1 week now all is gettingdone at our house inside outside everywhere..... and tonight after eating and drinking all day scale was down pound to 313....got to get out of the 3's.... man So I hope by morning it will show a new number...I try to focus on the new number that comes up on the scale.... Praying for a new number!!!!
I feeling real good about the Doc; test this week.
My clothes are fitting looser and that is nice to feel,,, I do see a bit in the lower face but thats about it. 9 months ago. I would not have cooked 3 good meals at home shaved and bathed and blowed dried the 2 dogs... I would not have gotten to do 4-5 loads fo laundry in the basment and all the other stuff I did as I was wlking from place to place.... at the size and health level I was at before.....Thank God I made a decision and it is helping me help ,myself. thank God!
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nsv diabetes. on April 17, 2008 6:22 pm
Today I had my yearly physical, last week I gave my blood so they would have the results today.
I had my mammy...it is normal...yea! Last year I had a lump and the did an extrusion and removed it. It was all good..Thank God.
So I went and had my physical everything is good.
What we though was a hemroid is a tear from months of canstipation,, even before the band. So doc wants me on.. benifiber 2x a day and ducosate 2x and a shot of MOM at night,,,he said it will take months to heal. I can deal.
the blood work that came back... my cholesterol was really high pre band then it went down and off meds, then back up to 155 so back on meds after surgery....
today it is 100 but he raised the meds due to he wants me at 70... he said when it hits 70 then we will look at the meds. I dont like taking them.
the big news,,, my AC1 that they measure the diabetes with , when they found and diagnosed it (10-2005), it was 11.5 ac1 with 450 blood sugar,,, which is really bad is now ac1 5.85 lower than the national average!!!
I cant tell you the problems that I was already having and the problems I was expecting to have... due to diabetes ,,,now reversed my Doc is amazed to say the least,, and tells me so.
that is only with a 65 pound weight loss... I cant wait to see the changes with the goals I have planned.
I love my band,, I would do it agian today if I needed to.
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I can see my knees! on April 13, 2008 7:45 pm
I was laying down to go to bed and was on my back and noticed my knees.... I told my husband I hadnt seen them like that in years!!!.... My chest was always up around my neck and have been a side sleeper for years... Which I am noticing things there too... my elbow goes down now instead of up there is a dip it goes into.... my neck doesnt feel like it is suffocating me...... Life is good with the band... still cant see it in the mirrors but feeling it ..is letting me know I must be doing something right...! I am gald I did the band!!
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changes on April 11, 2008 8:36 pm
THERE IS PLENTY CHANGES... MY SLACKS ARE LOOSER AND THEY HANG SO FAR DOWN I AM WALKING ON THE Back the pants with my heals.
I am restricited,, I still try to push it,,, but it kicks sometimes....
the new hair cut might show my face in a way I was not seeing it.
I have been walking alot better..doing house work alots better,,, was never bad it just took everything I had to do it. what takes me 3 hours today would of taken me a day and a half last year..... I am doing great cooking and shopping...
yard work has felt great this yeasr so far.
alot more evergy!!!
it only 65,,, cant wait til it his 100 and the differences I will feel then!!
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turkey on April 11, 2008 8:24 pm
I make turkey sloppy joes and turkey chilli,,, everyone loved it.
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baked good on April 11, 2008 8:24 pm
I have baked 2 things this week thought I would share
1st was brownie cupcakes with peanut butter chips
make your boxed brownie with 3 eggs NO oil I used applesauce no sugar added , add the water
mix..put in half the paper cup filling.. then sprinkle on a few chips per cup and cover the rest like you would to fill the cupcake up.... the box says bake for 31 minutes... these need to bake 17-20.... when they come out I put a couple more peanut butter chips on top..... I only ate a small one but no oil which lowered the fat...... when they cook ther smell like reeses cups...
2nd Tonight I baked ( beacuse I over cooked the brownies and they were dry to me)... a Jello cake
I bought a boxed white cake... baked it and used applesauce instead of oil.,,, with the eggs and water ...prepared a big box of sugar free cherry jello .( any kind you like) ...I used 2 cups hot and only 1 cup cold..... when the cake was done I forked small holes ( slowly) into the cake....ALOT... then drizzle the WARM jello all over it cover let set in the fridge... nice and chilled.... topped with cool whip... shared the cake with 2 neighbors...... That way Jim and I get a peice and not 10 peices.....
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new hair cut on April 5, 2008 9:47 pm
wow I had nerve yesterday,, new haircut and road a bike on a busy rd... looking to buy maybe,,,went to a wonderful baby shower with astranged family... with my head help high. stayed 3 hours, but had a very nice time, I hope they all did too.
I even put on make up lol I used a curling iron..... they were covered in crud I had to scub them up.... felt like I needed to go the bar,,,yippie
My pants that I pulled out to wear last week or so look fine but they are getting too big already...
soon I will be in all capri pants for the summer and by fall I dont think I could wear the dress pants I see the pockets already hang off the front of me and lower hip area is really loose....yea....
I did look in a mirror today at my lower tummy,,,I have to lift weights very soon, but it right now look that I will need some typye of surgery,,, I hope not,,, but I better start lifting.
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chilli on April 3, 2008 8:35 pm
I use 1 onion, 2 teaspoon of olive oil cook on medium until tender,
add extra lean hamburger scramble using potato masher in pic below.
drain any extra fat, cook until browned nicley, add 1 pack of your fav, chilli mix, I used mild mccormicks, Then I add 2 teaspoons of chilli powder from the can,,, your preference. To your large skillet add 2 cans drained pinto beans ( or kidney, what ever you like). 1 regular can of diced tomatoes and 1 lg can of tomato juice. stir mix well... turn on low and simmer for an hour or so .....Low on electric is...2...... Yummo! Enjoy
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cooking tip on April 3, 2008 8:34 pm
Hi everyone I have a tip for us all. The other day I was watching PBS, everyday cooking. I see a lady cooking ground beef . I do alot of this now due to the band and cooking the extra lean ( always with a slight touch og olive oil.)and now I am learning more on the turkey and chicken side....anyway...You know how we stand at our stoves and scramble the heck out of the meat.... well she was using the old potato masher......
A potato masher, with a zig-zag wire crushing head
so I dug it out and WOWWEE it was nice fast and crumbled the meat very well....just sharing, Thanks for reading tonight, Enjoy!!
turkey meatballs on March 30, 2008 1:30 pm
this is my first,, I had a bad stuck episode this am... needed something soft for supper.
I had bought a roll of the honeysickle white turkey ground meat....
I put in the roll... 2 eggs, salt pepper garlic and onion powders
no oat meal or bread crumbs.
mixed it up ( it was a bit loose but formable) and with a cookie dropper (small) I put them in my large skillet with a small bit of olive oil. cooked on medium heat with a lid.. turned them SOFTLY with 2 spoons let them slightly brown and I have turkey meatballs... they are better than I thought.... soft texture too.... taste pretty good.
I am thinking of bbq sauce
spaghettie sauce
a packaged gravy hummm but at leat they are cooked for supper they only took maybe 12 minutes.
just thought I would share! Thanks for reading have a great night!
I am moving towards more turkey and chicken is why I had it in my fridge!
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Busy week on March 27, 2008 7:15 pm
Tuesday was our support group meeting, it was a really good one too. It was on relationships after the band.
It was great because my husband was off and got to go with me. I dont for see any problems , I just like for him to be aware so he knows any signs that might come up as well.
Today we went back to Topeka, I got my slight unfill she took out .25 so now I am at 5.75 in my band. I instantly felt better she advised me to go eat something solid. we went to IHOP and I had half of a burger, went down no problem but I was very full.
Doc didnt want me to schedule for 2 months , YEA!, She feels I may be at a great spot for a while.
I went clothes shopping today in Topeka, I still bought the biggest shirt. 32 I tried on smaller sizes and they fit.. but I still want everything covered all my bulges.
Last but the best..... When we were driving down, I had gotten a seat belt extender last year, I had went many many years not wearing one, I couldnt get it to snap... today while riding I took out the extender and my seat belt snapped.... with an inch to spare...around the biggest part too.... I am gonna take a picture tommorow...heheh!!!!..... It was great I cried a bit.... I put the extender back in,,, I like everything big and comfy,,, it was not tight,, I am just not ready to let go of it just yet,, but I love knowing I could!!!
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just a note on March 25, 2008 11:22 am
for future reference,,, my belches were getting frequent and food and water were feeling like they were hitting a brick wall or having to pass a lump . It was very hard to get a belch or burp up like it was being blocked. Today after a night of no drinking or eating 3 hours before bed my throat, the burning feels much better but very horse and hard to talk. Must be healing, but shows how had it was. People calling at work cou;ld bearly hear me. I get my sligh unfi Thursday, But a couple days of light food will do me good.
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cold vs overfill on March 24, 2008 4:31 pm
For several days now I have had a sore throat. Hoping it was a cold, and thinking if I just lost 5 pounds the fat pad would shrink and the band would adjust by itself. I didnt call the doc. I didnt want to loose the fill. Well today I broke down and called, they think I am overfilled by a touch, they will take out half of last fill. They feel I was overfilled at the appointment ( which is fine thats why we are adjustable) there had probably been swelling this whole time and now it is progresivly gotten worse. Yesterday I could not keep solids down and when I took a bite it really hurt clear down into the throat and into the back. The office said that had I waited eventually I would of not been able to swallow spit. So liquids and smoothe until Thursday 3.5 days and nothing to eat or drink 3 hours before bedtime. Maybey with this slight unfil, I will stay at a sweet spot for a while! I will be glad to get rid of the acid taste in my mouth. and the sore throat. 
just a post on March 23, 2008 11:14 am
I posted this reply to a post that asked did we really know what we were in for??
I had researched it for about 3 1\2 years then it a bit to get the ball rolling.
I am surprised about the need to see a pound come off a day. It doesnt but I do weigh myself daily in the morning. I am very happy I have lost 62 pound and keeping it off.... The mental struggles are very hard and at times I still try to over eat.... But I do reconize it and call my self on it now. I tend not to eat enough calories and hold on to my weight. My dietician has explained it to me for years. but at 377 society tells us we shouldnt be eating. The guilt is stronger than knowledge.
My biggest concern which I had heard nothing about is perception issues. I didnt see myself get 377 lbs and I dont see myself losing 62 either.... I am just now seeing a fine glimps of it, sitting in places and wearing rings and underwear is very loose. I hope in time I can look and really see a difference. My dietician tells me I may never see it. That I have to focus on doc reports and physical feelings to know I have made a difference.
my energy level is way up even on days that I am sick with a cold, in the past I would of wanted to stay in bed all day.
It suprises me... the haters... the people who are heavy ( as I am) and yet, cant even look at me now, I guess they feel as I am somehow a trator and the fitter people are worried I might weigh less than them in the future????? Just dont get them. I just keep smiling and nodding at them. I guess that comes back to " who do we tell",,, I want to tell everyone that would benifit from the band I want to spread the news. But I am learning not all want to know.
There are many sides to the band even though it is round Good Luck and keep reading it only makes us stronger. Thanks for the Post. Nice to see you here. Sandy in Kansas.
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No Small Victory on March 20, 2008 10:30 pm
For years I wont go sit in a booth unless it pushes, some of them are stuck to the walls... today we got done shopping at walmart and the bread smelled so good... Jim and I thought we would get a small sandwich and a cup of soup. I took our bags over to a booth and as I was turning around Jim.s face looked like it was saying." honey are gonna fit there ok" and I was looking back at hime like " well I am gonna try it... slid right in just like I was buttered. Wow it was great and Jim look across at me and " well that right there was worth this whole thing isnt it?. I said yes it was. They were the small boths you see. people dont get the fact of how many places I been afraid to eveen go in...much less sit down.. that one looks too small,, that one hurts my legs..that one hurts my back and eventully I got too big for any of them.  one pound at at time. one NSV at a time.
vacation on March 19, 2008 9:27 pm
Vacation is coming, I am hopeful that I will notice the 61 pounds down, when I set in seats or go places, I already know I will walk and get around better. It will be a better vacation for Jim also, it wont be so much of Driving Miss Daisy. Bless his heart.
Before when we would go to Branson MO. I would only buy tickets on the isle row so I could sit on the outside, I didnt want to overlap into someone else. or get stuck in the middle if I had to get up....Moslty the overlap. They have a beautiful lake called Tabletop lake, If we go this year I would like to take a closer look. They have some great shows down there. We have been twice and enjoyed it both times.
they had the antique picture shops. We drove into one and Jim asked if the had plus sizes. They had 1 dress.... Jim was great put on an outfit and had a shotgun and moonshine jug, and I put on my dress.... That poor girl I made her take like 20 pictures, I never did find one I liked, I got so upset at her,,, I guess I wanted her to work the camera to make me less big. I was so upset I walked out. Jim paid and got the picture. I have hidden it the last 3 years. Last month while I was scanning my pics, I scanned it so it flashes on my screen with the rest of them now. On screensaver. It is all part of a bigger picture. I will never forget the way I felt that day. I dont need to forget . I need to remember. And learn from it.
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no cart on March 19, 2008 9:20 pm
Wow I had a nsv today.. I went to hobby lobby,the first thing I always do, for Years anyway is grab a cart to carry my purse around . Today I walked in and went by them and glanced back and said wow to myself... I was proud that I didnt feel that if I didnt have a shopping cart, that I wouldnt make it through the store....My neighbor Stephanie today seen me,,, we have never spoke until today,,, she has lived over there about 3 years or so, she told me she thought I had lost a ton of weight. Jim and I was walking the dogs a round. That was nice, but she works with my next door nieghbor Deb who does know I had the lap band. I am sure they visit, which is fine. All my nieghbor joke about never seeing us unless it is spring or fall.. too hot in the summer too cold in the winter. I laugh my with them... if they only knew how hard it was to stay in.... But I still think it's great I didnt need a cart. I am sure she meant well, I am just really guarded these days.
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yoder on March 13, 2008 9:32 pm
Today In Yoder Kansas they had the parade of quilts,,, they were beautiful... Jim drove us it was a lovely shopping, feel the warm breeze day..... Thanks Jim
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My niece on March 13, 2008 9:30 pm
Jennifer stopped by last Thursday to vist it was a nice long vist, I got to touch her belly and see her pregnant, It was great.
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weight on March 10, 2008 8:39 pm
this am 321 back up due to water gain I took a pill for it...... floating aabout 317.
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Furious fill on March 10, 2008 8:17 pm
This fill sure has kicked my ass. ..It is a very good fill excellent restriction, almost to the edge of need a drop out. For me it is a mental struggle.. I can be full and almost in pain and yet I start to graze about 10 pm,, I do left overs and pickles and I had a pop tart last night with milk and that dang thing can be getting stuck and I am still trying to chew....what is that..... I just have to find the comfort I am looking for,,,If I get anymore comfort from Jim he will think he is a gigilo....hehehe..... I am craving something...salt sugar booze nicotine...I am trying to transfer my addiction I think.....No I dont drink VERY rarely Quit smoking 3 years ago I watch the salt due to I swell in my feet and hands at times and I take a water pill for that...and sugar I dont do due to being diabetic and want so badly to keep it under control. So I am trying to keep myself on a tight rope,,,I dont want to tranfer addiction to something bad. I do very much believe it is a real thing. I am getting much better at walking. my 30 min up and down the blocks today was 2...I am getting faster...wowee that is great NSV...I will need to go another round each day to get my 30 min, it is 4 blocks a round if I do 1 round it had been 15 min walks,,,then I moved up to 2 rounds- 8 blocks which was
30 min walks and now they are 20 so I will up to 3 rounds this week.
I have been trying to get 2 walks a day hopefully go with 2 30 min walks is my goal a day...... I did it today and yesterday..... 2 times..I have been walking several times a week for a while now.... heres to walking and getting no new addictions lol...
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letting go on March 8, 2008 10:08 pm
I let go a little tonight with my hasband. Let out a few secrets, about things that have happened to me, In the past...I cried alot and the window looking at me got a bit clearer.
My journey takes me to far away child hood places and a few place as an adult,
I let Jim look in the window of my journey,,,and yet he did not judge, he only loved me more.
I Love my Husband. Thank God for Him. 
DOWN TODAY on March 4, 2008 7:19 pm
TALK ABOUT FEELING DOWN TODAY...MAN. I JUST CANT GET OUT OF MY FUNK TONIGHT. GOT STUCK ON BBQ BEEF AT LUNCH AND IT WENT DOWN HILL FROM THERE, I ATE EVERYTHING IT FEELS LIKE POP CORN WHICH IS VERY FEELING NOW, SWEET POTATOS, I WAS ALREADY FULL FROM THE POPCORN, RICA-RONI WAS ALREADY FULL FROM THE SWEET POTATOS THIS WAS ALL LEFT OVERS , THEN I MADE SUPPER HAMBURGER GRAVY AND A CHEAP BISCUIT,,,, THEN WHILE WATCHING THE BIGGEST LOSER I BEGGED MY HUSBAND TO GO TO DQ....BAD DAY... EVERYTHING WAS ABOUT 1.5 HOURS APART AFTER THE PB'ING...SHOULD OF DONE LIQUIDS I KNOW BUT MY MIND IS IN A "SHOW IT WHO IS BOSS "DAY AND AGAIN IT WON. IT IS SUCH A MENTAL STRUGGLE. I AM NOT BLAMING THE BAND BY NO MEANS, ITS ALL ME.... I HAD TALKED WITH MY MOTHER TODAY AND THAT DIDNT HELP EITHER. DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED LOL . ALL I CAN HOPE FOR IS A BETTER TOMORROW, TOMORROW I WILL UNDERSTAND WHY I AM PUSHING EVERYONE FROM MY LIFE BUT HUBBY....AND JUST NOW MY NIECE CALL OUT OF THE BLUE....I TRIED TO MAKE IT RIGHT BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN THERE. SHE IS GETTING READY TO HAVE A BABY WHAT A WONDERFUL TIME IN HER LIFE. | Leave a comment.
post I did on constipation on March 3, 2008 5:32 pm
Post Date: 3/3/08 5:02 pm
THIS IS RIGHT UP MY ALLEY!!
BENEFIBER PLUS VITAMIN AND FOLIC ACID.....OMG I WAS WANTING TO CALL 911 MY CONSTIPATION WAS SO BAD. I TOO DID THE DUCALAX AND TRIED DOCUSATE STOOL SOFTNER AND WAS USING CORRECTOL JUST FOR SOME RELIEF.....THE BOARD GUIDED ME TO BENEFIBER......WOW AND THE BLEEDING HEMROID...NO MORE SINCE THE DAY I STARTED BENEFIBER. I TAKE 2 TSP TWICE A DAY. I MAKE MY 32 0Z MUG OF CRYSTAL LIGHT AND ICE AND MIX IN THE BENEFIBER... NO TASTE... NOT CLOUDY...CLEAR AND I DONT EVEN KNOW IT IS THERE. I DO THAT 2 TIMES A DAY....DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DAY AND NIGHT...I REALLY THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO HAVE TO DO SOMEHTING DRASTIC.....I HAS STRUGGLED FOR A FEW MONTHS BUT REALLY GOT VERY BAD IN JAN-FEB. I AM ON MY SECOND JAR OF IT AND WILL BE BUYING IT BEFORE I BUY GAS.....LOL GOOD LUCK SANDY
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a post of mine on March 2, 2008 6:22 pm
What to remember is as though we complain along the way for the "sweet spot"....we are still losing weight the spot may help some do 1-3 lbs a week.... with out good restriciton you may not loose as fast..... we all want optimum weight loss..... sometimes we expect too much.... what you put in is what you get out of anything......We were all in your shoes....we were scared too....what I can tell you is read profiles and see where people come from.... I like the profiles... and last from me is I was not sure it would work for me either...Friday I hit 60 lbs in about 6 months......I am still trying to hit my sweet spot.... not sure it exist...but it is something to strive for..... you must make the right decision for you. I , myself, love it and would do it again tomorrow,,, and my husband is happy because I am healthy and not a medicated diabetic anymore and we will have alot more life and living to do. If I would stop losing weight today I still lost 60. Good luck to you. Sandy
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dietician on February 29, 2008 8:26 pm
I seen Sandi my dietician this week. she gave me alot of great words, I let her talk instead of me talking and telling her I already knoe everything,,,because I am finding out that I dont. She said to me no food is bad food all food is good food. moderation. She said Sandy ant the end of my journey she wanted me eating anything that I want and keeping my weight down. all in moderation.
My doc Bernstein would like me building muscle...lifting weights,, today I started work on out basement to clear it out for a work out area.
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fill today on February 28, 2008 9:14 pm
I have been stressing for a couple of weeks about the fill coming up... I keep a dr appoint journal type book,,medications and changes and fills and weight in inches also!....I read the page weight wrong so it was looking like i only lost a couple pounds this month... well at the Dieticians office showed I was 318 and 318 at home but docs said 320 but that is still down 9 pounds. She asked me the questions and I answered and we did a .50 fill. we are hoping this might last 6-12 weeks she said if I was still losing to call and reschedule 6 more weeks out. I cant believe the plates that I eat now well in a 4th of what I was but this fill should help squees off a vbit more carb from my plate. I am down 59 pounds... I dont see or feel it missing...hopefully some day I will be able to see it... the doc say I may never see it in the mirror if I am unable to perseave (?) it. But that I sould get my good vibe from the doc reports loose clothes and the diabetes turning around and all the other. I was and am a big girl it will take a while
I will tell you I should hit 60 lbs this weekend...which means I have 6 months until my year is up... so I would like to loose 40 before 8-9-2008 to reach my 100 in a year,,, no by no means did I try to plan 100 in a year but hey it might just be possible....!!!. I would still have a long way to go.
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support group meeting on February 28, 2008 9:13 pm
It was a great meeting lotfs of faces that are getting thinner!! way to go eveyone! Rachelle taught us about iron and why it is imoprtant to us and what types of iron there are.
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benifiber on February 24, 2008 6:27 pm
a week on benifiber sure did help me I am putting it in 3 drinks a day!! IT'S LIKE A VACATION!!!
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constipaption on February 16, 2008 9:47 pm
Over the last several months, I have been suffering from consitpaiton... the kind where in the middle I could of dialed 911...through trial and error I now have a regemine each day... benifiber in my crystal light, a half cup of grape nuts and at night crystal light and benefiber.... it went from 911 to healing and sighing a breath of relief.... just passing on some info.. God Luck to all,.
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helped hubby on February 9, 2008 8:22 pm
To day Jim and I delivered a bed and boxsprings to a sister in need of them... this morning I helped him haul up the bed and a chair and then loaded it in the truck... now a year ago... no way would I have made it up the stairs whith a bed let alone 3 times and loading the truck...I am sore tonight but we were coming home and I said wow JIm I did that today...... we both know this saved my life chosing the band. Jim and I talk alot.... there are all different layers to the mental issues we deal with all of us..... with the weight coming off these problems sure do come show their faces more,,, which only in turn helps me figure out why I am overweight. I feel mine started years before I can even remember, Its like reading a book and starting in the middle. but hopefully I can get each one dealth with and move one. like a grocery list.
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huge victory on February 9, 2008 8:19 pm
for 4 days now.... 4.... I can do my toiletries. For the past 2-3 years I had made up a device that would help me with things I couldnt reach TOO much Information I know....but I know I am not the only one to have to do these things. So I am sharing to let you know the band works and...THIS SHALL TOO PASS!!!..I am so happy about this I cant decribe it to you.
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no small victory on February 9, 2008 8:14 pm
I popped pop corn smart orvells... as I brought the 2 bowls from the kitchen, I stooped and grinned and handed my husband 1 of the bowls... he giggles and said what? I told him I had a small victory...do you know what it is.... we pause for a moment and yes I know what it is ... you gave me the bigger bowl of popcorn...... he got it right!! I knew I would not be able to eat the bigger bowl... in the past I would of shoved it in no matter what.... whats even better... he didnt finish it either!
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lowest so far on February 1, 2008 10:51 pm
my doc thinks we may be on the brink of a sweet spot 1-2 pounds a week I hope so.... I was seeing good weight loss.... but now I stall 3-4 days the it drops 1-3...I truly feel it is doing right and doing well by me...
I have been doing biggest loser workouts from dvd's I do level 1 now I really like them and the time flys by. and I am swimming 1 -2 times a week. water walking really. I am trying to mix it up and I want to do the power sculpting with Jillian to tone everywhere, I already bought it just go to open it. Today I hit the lowest number so far 321..... in 2 pounds I will be below 320... I take it in the 10's.... my next would be 310 one step at a time. It still fluctuates but I weigh in the am and I think it is great each time I get a new lowest number! I havent even thought about low numbers ever being on my scale again didnt think I would ever get down to this low again....much less and think I would pass it....wowo..... I hope this journey will help turn my though processes around to a more positive perspective about myself.
so as of this am to date from highest weight I am down 378-321=.....57 3 more and I get to say 60 hooray!!! | Leave a comment.
my special moments. on February 1, 2008 10:35 pm
All along so far I have been saying I just cant tell that I am losing.....I truly think I have a perception problem with my self. 2 times in the last couple weeks. Jim and I have eaten out.
There was only a couple booths I would even try to fit in. Most of the tables here in Salina are the booths that dont move. so for years now who ever I was dining with I would tell them before we went in that I needed a table, not a booth I have been terrified of booths...... I would become petrified if they tried to set us at a table.....Well last week our mexican place whos tables dont move,, I was scrared and Jim kept saying your gonna fit it will be ok... I was mortified....I was scrared all those people would see me squeeze into the booth...... I said Sandy you have to see, just try it..... slid right in no problems .......I fit in booths that I havent fit in 3-4 year......so me being hard on myself...today we got our state taxes....for a treat we went to red lobster..... I really do cook at home at least 6 days a week....its tax day,,,,doesnt everyone eat out? and I ate right about 1 cup of food if that..... yea....... the fear over wellmed me again... I didnt ask for a booth..... she walked us the long walk and it was a booth....oh my GOD I was so scared to sit down.....slid right in..... table didnt move and I was comfortable for the first time in years...red lobster has the worst seating...the booths dont move and the Captains chairs are painful to a larger person.... I so badly wanted to sit in a chair to see if it had gotten better also.......I felt good with that today.....when I was telling my MOM I really think it shocked her to know about not fitting somewhere and being in pain in someplaces..........I am letting out some of my struggly to her. I think is suprises her .....the stuggling behing closed doors.
my christmas present!! on January 24, 2008 9:16 pm
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Jim bought me a thumb ring it is yellow gold it has engraved circles small ones that over lap clear around the ring. to represnt the BAND, soon I will have the surgery date engraved in the inside also...I love it and I love JIM!!
I had to wait for it to be made,,,,,, I wish the little circles would show up better. I love it!
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suuport on January 22, 2008 11:03 pm
I drove almost 2 hours to support group tonight abput 13 people there and we had lost about 720 pounds it was a very good talking meeting. alot of new people!!! It was great socialization (?). I am very glad I went. The lesson was about vitamins, what kinds there are
capsule
tablet
chewable
liquid
sublingual ( small tablet)
and how important they are to all of us.
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post on January 22, 2008 9:00 am
Post Date: 1/22/08 6:16 am
Below, you'll find an article posted at renowned WLS Doc Terry Simpson's Website.
In a sort of bizarre way, I found this because someone told me that this doctor had quit doing RNY procedures altogether:
"Scientific studies are showing the LAP BAND is as effective as gastric bypass. This slide, and the slide below, show the results of 219 patients who had the RNY gastric bypass (labeled LRYGB) and 154 patients who had the LAP-BAND (the open circles labeled LAGB). They were identical groups of patients in terms of age, weight, and gender.
This graph compares excess weight loss between patients who had the RNY gastric bypass (solid dots labeled LRYGB) and patients who had the LAP-BAND (labeled LAGB). RNY gastric bypass patients lose weight quickly after surgery but, RNY patients start to regain weight later. The LAP-BAND patients catch up with the RNY patients, that is, they lose more slowly and they continue to lose weight even three years out. Over time the LAP-BAND patients lose as much weight as RNY patients.
Patients who have the RNY are told they have a "golden window" where they lose weight, usually 18 months. You can see in this graph that at 18 months the RNY patients plateau, or have achieved their weight loss, and even begin to regain weight (see how the line starts to go down). There is no "golden window" for the LAP-BAND. The LAP-BAND can be adjusted to continue to lose weight if they need to. It is adjustable to your needs. This slide was reproduced from data published by Patterson in the Journal of Gastric Surgery in 2005
 The data is clear: the LAP BAND, over time, allows a lasting, a permanent weight loss. Patients who have the RNY lose in the first few months, then regain their weight. When comparing data of the Body Mass Index (BMI) you see that the LAP-BAND loses slowly, but continues to lose after three years. The LAP-BAND is represented by the open circles labled (LAGB) on top.
The RNY, shown in the solid circles labled LRYGB shows a slight increase in the BMI after 18 months, meaning there is a tendency to regain weight after the RNY. Early on the RNY patients lose weight more quickly, but you can see they reach a plateau and then begin to regain weight.
Another reason that having an adjustable system works better-- it allows for changes over time. Slow weight loss, but steady. This study clearly shows patients with higher BMI do as well with the LAP-BAND as the RNY. It is clear in the LAP-BAND v. RNY the LAP-BAND wins. The LAP BAND wins over time, any study that looks at a year or a year and a half is too short-sighted. It is the long-term results that are important.The LAP-BAND is over ten times safer. The LAP-BAND is as effective. Do not be fooled by old statistics about the LAP-BAND, often those studies were done by surgeons who did not have a dedicated practice to the LAP-BAND, and the technique they used is no longer done. Newer publications have confirmed that the LAP-BAND is the safest weight loss operation, but it is more effective than the RNY. The first studies done in the United States were done poorly, and by surgeons who did not have a center dedicated to helping the LAP-BAND patient. Those early studies showed poor weight loss and frequent repeat operations. Those studies were not done by surgeons comfortable with laparoscopic surgery, and using techniques that are no longer used for the LAP-BAND. The latest studies show great results with the LAP-BAND in centers that are dedicated to the LAP-BAND. Why? Because these centers know how to adjust bands, follow their patients carefully, and take the time to educate their patients about how to use their new tool. Our Center is dedicated to the LAP-BAND. The LAP-BAND is the only weight loss operation we do. We know how to help you achieve your weight loss goals.
Allergan, the company that makes the LAP-BAND, by law has to report the early studies. Later studies have clearly shown the LAP-BAND is safer than the RNY-gastric bypass, and IT IS AS effective for weight loss. They do have a great patient book which you can download on your computer. To get this patient book click here. The LAP-BAND is the only FDA approved weight loss surgery. The LAP-BAND promotes a healthy life-style for long-lasting weight loss.
The RNY trades one disease for another: it trades obesity for malabsorption. By re-arranging your guts you sometimes have severe side effects, and can have long-term problems such as iron deficiency anemia, calcium deficiency leading to osteoporosis. The LAP-BAND allows you to lose weight without re-arranging your insides -- no malabsorption."
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a samll bale of hay!! on January 20, 2008 1:25 pm
1 pound = a Guinea Pig
1.5 pounds = a dozen Krispy Kreme glazed donuts
2 pounds = a rack of baby back ribs
3 pounds = an average human brain
4 pounds = an ostrich egg
5 pounds = a Chihuahua
6 pounds = a human skin
7.5 pounds = an average newborn
8 pounds = a human head
10 pounds= chemical additives an American consumes each year
11 pounds = an average housecat
12 pounds = a Bald Eagle
15 pounds = 10 dozen large eggs
16 pounds = a sperm whale�s brain
20 pounds = an automobile tire
23 pounds = amount of pizza an average American eats in a year
24 pounds = a 3-gallon tub of super premium ice cream
25 pounds = an average 2 year old
30 pounds = amount of cheese an average American eats in a year
33 pounds = a cinder block
36 pounds = a mid-size microwave
40 pounds = a 5-gallon bottle of water or an average human leg
44 pounds = an elephant�s heart
50 pounds = a small bale of hay
55 pounds = a 5000 BTU air conditioner
60 pounds = an elephant�s penis
66 pounds = fats and oils an average American eats in a year
70 pounds = an Irish Setter
77 pounds = a gold brick
80 pounds = the World�s Largest Ball of Tape
90 pounds = a newborn calf
100 pounds = a 2 month old horse
111 pounds = red meat an average American eats in a year
117 pounds = an average fashion model (and she�s 5�11�!)
118 pounds = the complete Encyclopedia Britannica
120 pounds = amount of trash you throw away in a month
130 pounds = a newborn giraffe
138 pounds = potatoes an average American eats in a year
140 pounds = refined sugar an average American eats in a year
144 pounds = an average adult woman (and she�s 5�4�)
150 pounds = the complete Oxford English Dictionary
187 pounds = an average adult man
200 pounds = 2 Bloodhounds
235 pounds = Arnold Schwarzenegger
300 pounds = an average football lineman
400 pounds = a Welsh pony
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my cardio on January 20, 2008 11:57 am
1-20-2008...30 min
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tryin to keep it seperate! on January 19, 2008 10:32 am
She is the 1st of 12 when will I make call 2 and to who ...I dont know it was very hard to make this one......She said she forgave me,,,and that is great,,,but I am not sure what I did that I need forgiven for..... it has been almost 3 years....I am just trying to make a step..... but for all the hell and things Jim and I went through.....no one seems to think they need to ask for forgivness,,,, I guess we will keep asking and have to live with that too.... Thank God I got the lap band so I dont eat all those feeling too. I love them all But had the parents stayed out of things us and the kids would of been Just fine. But repairing things with the kids they will need to also keep me and the parents relationship seperate. just because me and the parent isnt right doesnt mean they have to be mad too. Might all just be too much to bite off,,,still,,,, after 3 years almost..... 1step at a time....
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I called my niece Jennifer on January 19, 2008 10:23 am
She was 1 of the kids I had the big blowout with I told her I could not appoligize for threating to call the law br cause I was protecting them as an Aunt that was my job. I would appoligze for it getting blown all out of proportion, and for mis communication through some people.,,, She is getting ready to have a baby First I wanted a clean start second I didnt want to miss the baby thing over something that went so bad. Thanks Jen....
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SELF PERCEPTION on January 17, 2008 7:48 pm
SELF PERCEPSION, IT IS A PROBLEM FOR ME I STARTED THIS JOURNEY AT 377 BUT I DONT SEE MYSELF AT 377 I SEE MYSELF AT ABOUT 280, JIM TOOK VIDEO AT CHRISTMAS I WANTED TO SAY WHO IS THAT,,I SURE LOOKED LIKE MY GRANDMA AT HER BIGGESET. I DIDNT IMAGINE. EVEN WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR I DONT SEE THAT WOMAN ON THE VIDEO....CONFUSING TO ME BUT THIS IS ONE I AM WORKING ON
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54 lbs down and 33 inches on January 17, 2008 7:18 pm
HAD 2 DR'S APPOINTMENTS TODAY, FIRST SHOWED 3 MONTH BLOOD WORK STILL NO SIGNS OF DIABETES MY AC1 IS 6.0 3 MINTHS AGO HE SAID IT WAS 6.5 SO TILL COMING DOWN!!! ALTHOUGH MY CHOLESTEROL IS ON HTE HIGH SIDE IT SHOULD 80 BUT IT IS 151 HE DIDNT THINK IT WAS ANY THING I WAS DOING,,HE SAID PEOPLE CAN EAT SALAD EVERY DAY AND HAVE HIGH CHOLESTEROL. HE FEELS ONCE I HIT THE 100 LB MARK LOST I SHOULD AT SOME POINT GET OFF THE SMALL PILL.....
MY BAND DOC WAS ALSO VERY PLEASED WITH MA AND JIM BOTH WHEN ANSERWING HER QUESTION I THINK SHE FELT I WAS DOING VERY WELL AND UNDERSTOOD WHAT I WAS TO BE DOING, SHE KINDA LEFT IT UP TO JIM AND I IF I WANTED A FILL, JIM AND TALKED ON THE WAY UP TO THE DOCS OFFICE ABOUT, HE SEES WHAT I DO AND HOW I EAT,,WE DECIDED WE WANTED TO TRY A HALF OF A CC.... SO MY ODC DID THAT,,,SHE HOPES THIS WILL BE A SWEET SPOT FOR A WHILE, iT WAS 7 LBS FOR 4 WEEK SO SHE FEEL I AM RIGHT IN LINE WITH WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING,,,,I JUST HAVE TO EXERCISE! MORE I DO DO THINGS BUT JUST NOT EVERY DAY.
I DID BUY THE BIGGEST LOSER FITNESS PROGRAM BOOK AND 2 OF THE WORK OUT VIDEOS.
I FELL LIKE I STUDY ALOT OF THINGS BUT I KNOW HOW TO WALK ON TREDMILLS,, WATER WALK,,BUT I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT WEIGHT TRAINING.
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