Jane C.
February 12, 2010
Feb 12, 2010
OMG It has been forever since I wrote. I am still so happy with my journey. Have I gained? YES... Am I happy? Yes .....Do I have regrets? NO. So much has happened. Life goes on and my weight will always be a struggle. My wonderful sister printed all my blogs over the years and gave it to me for Christmas. My own story. My own words. So much I forgot and it was so nice to have my own words to remind me of where I was over 4 years ago. I hate that I have gained. I am at 199. Yes I hit the 200 pound mark but I have dropped back down. I sit here in front of the fire. I am sitting on a heating pad. My back for the first time in 4 years is out. I know it is from the weight. Even though I am still 110 pound from where I started, the added weight around my middle is the cause.
On December 2, 2009 my daughter was DX. with Juvenile Diabetes. I really discovered I am a stess eater. These past two months have been such a roller coaster. I have to get this weight off. She has to comply with her new life. My husband has gotten on board with his type 2 diabetes and he has lost 25 lbs with her. I have to get this weight off before I end up with it. I was Dx. with an elevated A1C when I started this journey. I was never treated for diabetes but I know it is just waiting. I have let my gard down and I am so afraid I will get it next.
So life goes on. I am taking one day at a time. I am not joining Weight Watchers or doing some fad diet, which is what I did all my life. I know what works. I am getting back to basics. My tool still works. I can only eat little amounts. Sugar, a lot of it makes me dump, but I have learned and am back to grazing. If I am bored I graze. If I worry, I graze. If I can't sleep, I graze. If I am mad, I graze. If I am Happy, I graze. If I am anything right now I graze. Dr. West-Smith, taught us to make a busy box. I need to get my stuff back out. I am reading my book Dr. Tom gave me 4 years ago.
I am still responsible for my health.