14 Days and Counting!

Mar 08, 2010

Wow, I can't believe that I'm almost there, 14 days and counting!  I am scheduled to have the RNY procedure on March 23 at St. Luke's Hospital The Woodlands with Dr. Jason Balette.  I am actually starting to feel excited again... for a while there I was having mixed emotions about the surgery.  I was starting to feel very nervous - I don't like to have surgery, but I know with God on my side and a great surgeon like Dr. Balette everything will be fine.  I have also lost 21 lbs!!!  I went in for my pre-op appointment about 2 weeks ago and I just knew that I had gained weight - and I was right!  I had gained 8 lbs!  I was up to 385! This was not good at all.  I knew that if I didnt get serious Dr. Balette would cancel the surgery - which he confirmed it as soon as he came in the room to talk to me.  To be totally honest I started to mourn food.  I started to eat everything as if it were my last meal - which meant I was eating all the bad stuff and overeating as well.  I promised to loose the weight and I have a weight check for Thurs March 18th with Dr. Balette, but I know I've lost enough to go ahead with the procedure.  I  am now down to 364! I have been reading this book called Before and After by Susan Maria Leach.  It has been so inspirational!  Alot of the mixed emotions that I am having she was also having, about food, the surgery, friends and family.  She uses this quote in her book serval times and I find my self repeating it in my mind when I'm debating whether I will stay true and eat the weight watchers ice cream or cheat and eat the blue bell ice cream at my mom's birthday party just a few days ago.  "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels"  I have continued to say this to myself when confronted with hard decisions about eating.  I can honestly say Thank You Susan for writing this book! It has helped me so much and will continue to do so after my surgery!

~Amanda

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