And it begins...

Dec 19, 2011

Had my physical today with the office that is going to be doing my surgery. It went pretty well, got labs to do tomorrow and then meet with a behaviorist on Wednesday morning and the surgeon Wednesday afternoon.

This gets to be such a long drawn out process, you get to the point where you just quit thinking about it most of the time and it seems like forever away. Getting through these appts this week and maybe even get a surgery date will really help me feel like it is really going to happen!

I am so ready for this, over the past few weeks, much of the doubt and apprehension I have been feeling has melted away. Today I weighed in at 388lbs. I was 335 last July. I just can't do this anymore, I claw and scrape to start getting the weight off and as soon as I stop obsessing about it, it snaps right back up....

So frustrating...I am done with it, I am done with not being able to wear clothes, I am done with avoiding social situations where I have to worry about being comfortable and feeling self conscious, I am done with worrying about fitting into booths at restaraunts, I am done with being a novelty act to people....

I am ready for this surgery, bring it on!!!

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