AmyDee123
Its gonna kill me.
May 22, 2015
Gotta complain, because if not what else will I do with my time? It seems that is all I do lately. That and eat meat and drink water.
Waiting for this insurance approval is going to kill me. I have nothing else to "do" to my weight loss journey, and it takes so long to see enough results that motivation is so hard. But look who I'm telling. We all deal with this, right? Its why our addiction with food and our short attention span has driven us to the point where we have turned to surgery to fix things.
I called BCBS this morning, only to get the same answer. No, there has not been a determination. Yes, it is in the right department for review. Ma'am, you do realize this can take several weeks to get an answer, right? Well yes! Of course I know that! I'm expecting that! But I have heard stories of people calling 5 minutes after it was sent in and they get an approval! Why can't that be me?!
And don't get me started on this diet. This diet, which will also kill me. This ultra low carb diet that I am not even required to be on but decided to do on my own to be better prepared for the times after surgery. It will kill me. No more than 30g of carbs a day. No attention paid to fat or fiber or calories. More than 70g of protein a day. 1 gallon of water a day. Eggs, meat, and cheese, and green leafy veggies only. Except jello. ALL the sugar free jello you can stand. Only problem is I'm allergic to eggs so those are out. That leaves meat and cheese and green leafy veggies. And cheese has carbs and causes constipation. That leaves meat and some cheese and leafy green veggies. And there really aren't that many leafy green veggies. So my day consists of deli roll ups, protein shakes, jello and dinner featuring some sort of meat and some green leafy veg that I have spent 4 hours searching the internet for a new intriguing way of cooking.
Speaking of which, I am now addicted to brussel sprouts. Big time.
But I digress. This sucks. Not because I am wanting to over eat. I don't over eat. I eat often, and I eat REALLY REALLY rich foods. My husband and I are foodies. I was going to go to culinary school. We have made trips around the world centered around certain restaurants and chefs and foods. Food is a massive part of our lives. My doctor emptied my band for the first time in 7 years, and I gained 10 pounds in 10 days. Why? ALL THE FRENCH FOOD AND A 5 DAY CRUISE!!! Omg I went crazy. It was dumb, but I did it.
So here I am. 17 pounds down since I got off the cruise. That is May 12. I gained 10 pounds in 10 days. But I lost 17 pounds in 10 days too. I guess that is good. And it hasn't killed me yet, so I will just keep trudging on. But it will kill me. I'm sure of it. I will be found dead, in the kitchen, with my cell phone in one hand and the insurance company on the line, and a half eaten steak in the other. I will have gone insane to death!
Its real, look it up.
:) I hope everyone has a good day.
