amy H.
less than 1 week till surgery !!
Nov 13, 2011
this past few weeks have been very trying. I've been getting ready for the 2 week liquid diet and it has been so hard. I am struggling with my emotions, as much as the hunger . i feel like I'm letting my family down, by not cooking and grocery shopping for them. my husband has been doing it all. we don't even sit down together because i couldn't be around the food. the food was killing me, literally. I have been in control of my family always, money, dinner, groceries, and all of a sudden i asked my husband to go to the grocery store and he spends more than i ever have, i about broke down, i was giving up everything i had , all my power. he did a good job, and has been very helpful, but my mind is really being evil. I don't want to be but i cant help it. i love him. i wanted this, but i feel like I'm giving up everything and I'm feeling sorry for myself. He will be rewarded with a new slimmer wife, and yet he does what ever he wants with out ever stopping a thing i just have to keep reminding myself i want this I'm doing this for me, and my kids, and I'm changing me, i decided it, he didn't. I will be successful, and I'm ready for change and if its not embraced by everyone, then so be it. But i need to get past this pitty pot I'm on, and let it empower me, I guess if i can make this my driving force, then that's what its all about. i will be strong, i will be who i am. I will be accountable for my actions, starting today.
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About Me
NE
Location
43.3
BMI
Surgery
11/18/2011
Surgery Date
Nov 13, 2011
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