And we have approval!

Nov 09, 2014

I found out on Friday that my insurance approved my surgery, but wanted to wait until I had 'hard' proof. Saturday's mail arrived and there it was! You have been approved for Bariatric Surgery! At first I was really excited, because there was speculation that insurance would not approve because of regaining a few pounds and I was silently reconsidering surgery. Now, after a few days, I don't seem to feel any sort of emotion at all towards my surgery. Like I am mentally numb. After the past 6 months of appointments, therapy, lost records, stress and worry, changing eating habits and working hard to wrap my mind around having most of my stomach removed, I think I am just worn out. Maybe I am in shock.

I still have 3 more appointments to go; anesthesiologist on Nov 28th, Endoscopy on Dec 3rd and then a final meeting with the surgeon on Dec 4th. As long as those go well, my 8 day liquid diet starts Dec 8th and surgery will be Dec 16th.

I'm not feeling scared or worried about the procedure. I'm not upset at missing Christmas dinner. In fact, I have felt more relaxed and free these last few days. I'm trying to enjoy that feeling, because I know it will be replaced with other, less positive feelings later on (hormones and all that jazz!)

What I am worried about is getting everything organized - my house, purchasing vitamins/protein things, that sort of thing. I have some school assignments to finish up the semester (I'm in college), decorate for Christmas and take care of all the gifts and such before I go into the hospital. These next 4 weeks are going to fly by with all this keeping me busy. It might be a blessing to have these distractions, as I won't be consciously thinking about the surgery all the time.

One step at a time will get me there!

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