Becki M.
Closing in on the CENTURY mark!
Aug 18, 2007
Seeing 214 on my scale this morning was so exciting, as I'm 7# from hitting my century mark! My life has been opened to so many new opportunities, and I'm eager to do things I haven't been able to in many, many years (or decades), but slowly. In my head I think I'm still twenty-something, but my close-to-fifty body tells me otherwise.
I think the only disappointment I can voice is that even after losing almost 100#, my left knee is still very painful, and my mobility is limited. I know I'll eventually have to have it replaced, but I'm trying to hold that off as long as possible.
It's nice having my hubby be able to actually hold me in his arms completely. He's much more attentive especially as his buddy teases him about me looking so fine! LOL! I was actually tickled to be able to buy a new dress from the JUNIOR's department! His response was "Daddy likes!"
My daughter is getting worried as I'm shrinking; she's afraid I'll be smaller than her, and I'm well aware of that feeling. I was always the small one of my plus-sized family growing up, but for the last 14 years, I've been the largest. NO MORE! I gave my sister two baskets of my large clothes that just hang off me now. Now I have room in my closet for NEW CLOTHES! I have bought a few things, but I'm not content staying a 16. I think a 12 would be great. Haven't worn that for about 40 years!
I'm already making plans for my tummy-tuck. I hope to have it done early next year, so I'll be comfortable in a bathing suit for next summer. I hope to go on the MUSIC BOAT cruise the 3rd week of May with some of my friends in the Christian Music industry...several I haven't seen since I've begun melting away! I also want to make a trip to Mobile to see some of my friends and family that have not seen me since I was over 300#. I know my daddy would be very proud of me. I still miss him so much even after 24 years. My Mom is frequently telling me how proud she is of me.
It's nice FEELING pretty. It's nice not having people STARE at the big FAT Lady (everywhere I used to go), with their looks of disgust or pity. Nor feeling like such a beached whale when trying to get out of the water at the Gulf and gravity sets back in. Being able to tie my shoes with my feet on the floor and although I still have more belly than I want, bending over is not as hard as it used to be. Not having the steering wheel tilted way up in order for it not to rub, or the seat so far back I could barely reach the pedals. Not having my own TV table protruding from my abdomen. Being able to see my feet when I look down from a standing position. WOW!
I now know why most people I talk to say their only regret was that they did not do this sooner. I wanted to, but it had to be the right time. Thank God my time was finally right. It's nice to LIVE and not just Exist. My heart understands the disappointment many of my new OH friends that are still trying to get approval from their insurance companies. It took me 7 years, so I say to them...DON'T GIVE UP!
I think the only disappointment I can voice is that even after losing almost 100#, my left knee is still very painful, and my mobility is limited. I know I'll eventually have to have it replaced, but I'm trying to hold that off as long as possible.
It's nice having my hubby be able to actually hold me in his arms completely. He's much more attentive especially as his buddy teases him about me looking so fine! LOL! I was actually tickled to be able to buy a new dress from the JUNIOR's department! His response was "Daddy likes!"
My daughter is getting worried as I'm shrinking; she's afraid I'll be smaller than her, and I'm well aware of that feeling. I was always the small one of my plus-sized family growing up, but for the last 14 years, I've been the largest. NO MORE! I gave my sister two baskets of my large clothes that just hang off me now. Now I have room in my closet for NEW CLOTHES! I have bought a few things, but I'm not content staying a 16. I think a 12 would be great. Haven't worn that for about 40 years!
I'm already making plans for my tummy-tuck. I hope to have it done early next year, so I'll be comfortable in a bathing suit for next summer. I hope to go on the MUSIC BOAT cruise the 3rd week of May with some of my friends in the Christian Music industry...several I haven't seen since I've begun melting away! I also want to make a trip to Mobile to see some of my friends and family that have not seen me since I was over 300#. I know my daddy would be very proud of me. I still miss him so much even after 24 years. My Mom is frequently telling me how proud she is of me.
It's nice FEELING pretty. It's nice not having people STARE at the big FAT Lady (everywhere I used to go), with their looks of disgust or pity. Nor feeling like such a beached whale when trying to get out of the water at the Gulf and gravity sets back in. Being able to tie my shoes with my feet on the floor and although I still have more belly than I want, bending over is not as hard as it used to be. Not having the steering wheel tilted way up in order for it not to rub, or the seat so far back I could barely reach the pedals. Not having my own TV table protruding from my abdomen. Being able to see my feet when I look down from a standing position. WOW!
I now know why most people I talk to say their only regret was that they did not do this sooner. I wanted to, but it had to be the right time. Thank God my time was finally right. It's nice to LIVE and not just Exist. My heart understands the disappointment many of my new OH friends that are still trying to get approval from their insurance companies. It took me 7 years, so I say to them...DON'T GIVE UP!
Wonderful August so far!
Aug 12, 2007
Well, the kids are back in school, and I'm just back from a Women's retreat in Atlanta (WOMEN OF FAITH conference), and it was a wonderful time. It was even a milestone for me in that I was able to wear a 16W pair of jeans, and actually see light between my legs...LOL! Haven't see that in about 35 years! I still have more belly than I would like, but it's down 12 inches already, so I can't complain too loudly. I feel much better, although I still have lots of problems with my crazy left knee.
The group of 10 from our church did quite a bit of walking during our stay, and I even managed to lose 2 more pounds when I weighed this morning. We ate Friday night at the Hard Rock Cafe, and that burger tasted wonderful! I split one with another lady, and I was still only able to eat almost half of my half (minus the bread). I had a Hurricane glass with a non-alcolholic fruit smoothie that had strawberry and orange in it. I don't seem to be affected by the dumping that many do. I'm not so sure that it's a good thing, but at least if I want a little taste occasionally of something sweet, I can without getting sick. I just try not to too often. No more sleeves of thin mints for this girl.
I've heard that nothing tastes as good as being thin feels....I'm still waiting to see if that's true. I'm tickled to be down from a 26/28W to a 16W in 4 months. Way beyond what I ever could have imagined!
The group of 10 from our church did quite a bit of walking during our stay, and I even managed to lose 2 more pounds when I weighed this morning. We ate Friday night at the Hard Rock Cafe, and that burger tasted wonderful! I split one with another lady, and I was still only able to eat almost half of my half (minus the bread). I had a Hurricane glass with a non-alcolholic fruit smoothie that had strawberry and orange in it. I don't seem to be affected by the dumping that many do. I'm not so sure that it's a good thing, but at least if I want a little taste occasionally of something sweet, I can without getting sick. I just try not to too often. No more sleeves of thin mints for this girl.
I've heard that nothing tastes as good as being thin feels....I'm still waiting to see if that's true. I'm tickled to be down from a 26/28W to a 16W in 4 months. Way beyond what I ever could have imagined!
