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I am now 15 months out.  I have been a little discouraged lately as I am working so hard to get the rest of the weight off, yet seem to be stuck.  I exercise 1 1/2 to 2 hours daily... sometimes wearing a 20 lb weight vest and then I seem to blow all that hard work on some type of sweets.  My addiction to sugar still rages in me.  I have lost a total of 157 pounds and still need to lose at least 20-30 more.  Lately I seem to be playing with 2 1/2 pounds... losing it... gaining it back... losing it... etc.  When I think of how hard I have worked exercising, sweating, etc and then eat sweets and see I gained 2 1/2 pounds, it gets really discouraging!  I get petrified seeing that scale go up, even though I know it will probably go down next week, it still scares me.  This is sure a long journey and sometimes I wonder if I will ever make it to goal.  I am not sure once hitting goal that I can change my mind frame from "needing to lose" to "maintaining".  I have never been to a point where I need to just maintain, it has always been "need to lose" as I have been overweight all my life.  I know there are things I can do better... eat less calories (I seem to be eating 1500-1600 daily, need to stay at 1200), need to drink my water (I try to get in 4 litres a day and some days don't get 3 litres in) and I need to stay away from the sweets.  I work my butt off in exercising and can not imagine adding more there, so I will have to work on the other areas.  I got a bodybugg and that has helped a lot.  I burn around 2700-2900 calories daily... so I must be eating far more than I think I am.  I will just keep plugging along and try to stick to the program.

I hit my ONE YEAR mark.  Wow!  How a lot of things can change in a year.  I lost a total of 140 pounds in that year since surgery.  I have gone from a size 28-30W to a size 14.  I am amazed at my size and still can not get it in my head.  My mind has not adjusted to it yet.  I put my old pants on from a year ago and  W O W, I could not believe how big they were.  I am sooooo grateful that I had this surgery.  I still work very hard at keeping my calories under 1200 and I exercise 5 days a week playing racquetball for 1 1/2 to 2 hours a day.  I have done some hiking and will soon go horseback riding.  I still need to lose about 40-50 more but I am so excited to be where I am right now. 

I am now 8 months out post op.  I have been a little discouraged with the weight loss as I only lost 5 pounds during the past month.  I have now lost a total of 108 pounds, with still needing to loose a lot more.  I know I have slipped in my program and eating and I need to make more of a committment to stay on it and watching what I eat.  I also need to up my exercise to balance out the caloric intake.  I just need to be more committed but it is scary too because I remember all the diets, etc that I failed at and am worried about failing at this.  I need to be more aware and more committed.

Today is my 7 month surgiversary.  I have lost 103 pounds as of today.  I am kind of amazed that the scale says the number it does... it just doesn't register in my brain that it is my weight number and not just a number.  I still feel far from my goal weight.  I still seem to see the chubbiness here and there... and the loose skin.  I am excited to be where I am now.  I am so glad I had the surgery.  I am worried about what meds I can take for joint pain, arthritis, etc as I can't take the aspirin family meds.  I hope there is something out there for me med wise with an RNY... I will have to check it out.  I am tired of aching.  I was hoping alot of the pain would go away with the weight loss... but nope, it sometimes feels worse.  BUT HECK, I HAVE LOST 103 POUNDS OF UNWANTED FAT!!!  I usually exercise 35 minutes elliptical a day, 4-5 days a week.  I will get back to weight lifting once I heal more from the surgery I had to mend the tears/holes in the mesentary.

Wow... what a month.  To start with I have lost a total of 93.5 pounds in the past six months.  We have had a few set backs, one just recently.  I was admitted to the hospital for exploratory surgery due to pain I was having in my intestines, when I ate or especially when I drank.  Exploratory surgery showed that I had 2-3 holes in the mesentary that had to be sewn up and my intestines were trying to escape.  These tears/holes were due to the weight loss.  I am now healing from the laproscopic surgery and am back to regular diet, soon regular activity.  I am very pleased with the weight I have lost... I am still impatient and want it to come off faster... but am pleased where I am.  Still with complications, I would still do it again.