WOW its been so long. Time for an update.

Jan 27, 2010

I cant believe its been so long since I have updated this. ALOT has happened since I last updated. Hubby was deployed to Afghan, My daddy was diganosed with Lung cancer, I went on quite a few trips and I moved to Germany. SO I will start by saying Brad has made it home from Afghan. He came back a different person, different in a good way. He came home to a different me also. Different in a good way. When he left I was broken down. Everything seemed to be falling down around me and I didnt know how to stop it. I felt like my life was spiraling out of control and I didnt know how and couldnt stop it.   I decided I wasnt gonna let anything mess up my life anymore. I became stronger and more confident. I took control of my life and the things in my life. He came home to a more confident, self assured and self sufficent person and he likes it. It took some getting used to but he is liking it. I think at times he doesnt know what to think since I have never been that kind of person but like I said he is getting used to it.  We lost my daddy May 29, 2009 to lung cancer. He went peacfully in his sleep at Centineal in Nashville. I miss him so much, him and my momma both. Next month will make 7 years since we lost momma to Breast cancer and then to lose daddy to lung cancer really hit us hard. Especially since we though everything was gone and he was getting better. That is one thing we are still dealing with. 
 I have moved. While Brad was in Afghan he found out that he was on orders for Germany. We left Fort Campbell on Oct 5, 2009. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do because I had to leave my 21 year old son behind. I know its time. Probally past time for it to happen but that doesnt mean I have to like it lol.  In 21 years I have never been without him and then suddenly BOOM he's gone. Then theres the fact that in June my baby graduates and will be leaving to go back to the states for college. That has been very hard for me to deal with along with the fact that I am so far away from home and my family and friends. I havent made any friends since being here. One friend from Campbell has moved here also in the past few weeks so that is nice. Mostly I just sit in the house all day cleaning and doing nothing It is very hard because back inthe states I was very active and you couldnt keep me down. Here it is so cold and started out rainy but now it snows everyday. I am a Tennessee girl and we don have snow like this back there. I dont like the cold. I freeze in a warm house and when I go outside I am pityful  lol. SO for now I am a hermit atleast until it warms up.  The food here is so different than back home. They really believe in eating here. You go to a resturant and they pile on the food. They dont do doggie bags so I wind up wasting alot because also the resturants I have been to dont have half portions or childrens menu's. The breads are amazing. I know I am not supposed to eat much bread but I put cheese on it for the protein and I eat it in small amounts. They season things so different here. So far the food is all good. The only thing I Havent liked is the potatoe salad. That was kind of nasty  lol. I have been able to maintain my weight for a good while now. I did lose s few lbs when we first got here due to the depression mode but I havent lost anymore. I get my b12 shots every month, well actually since we have been here I went to the doc 1 time and after that they gave me a multi dose vile and I give m yself the shot every month. Once it warms up I plan on doing alot more walking and taking pics. Just doing alot of site seeing.
  I guess I have rambled on enough for now. I will try to be better at updating this thing. I did post 2 of my most recent pics. I will also try to get more as time goes on. Thaks for reading.

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