Today is a downer

Jan 31, 2010

I looked at the calender today. I usually try not to do that towards the end of January. 25 yrs ago today I lost my son Adam. He was only one day old. I wonder what kind of person he would have been. I feel guilt over having been so young and stupid as to have gotten no pre natal care and will always wonder if that was why he died. They told me nothing at all in the hospital except sometimes these things happen. 
 I cherish the children I have. I grieve for the babies I have lost. They told me I would probably never carry to term, and it was a struggle. I have been pregnant 7 times and have 3 wonderful children.
 Adam, I still miss you.

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