birdoffire88
The Beginning
May 19, 2011
Well I've made a new friend. Waiting on my friend from work that referred me to this site to send me a friend request. She is a VSG success story and has been supporting my on and off decision to have the VSG procedure for the past year now. She has become a very good friend and I consider her to be my BFF. It's tough finding and keeping a BFF when you work full-time and have children, so her friendship means a lot to me.I have struggled with my weight since 1988 when I went off to college. It's been a roller coaster ride of up's and down's with diet after diet. I even did that Mayo Clinic Diet a few times, I lost the weight, but always gained everything back, plus some.
I weighed 125 and was 5' 5" tall size 8, when I went to college. I've actually grown to 5' 6.5" with a combination of two children. It's said with some women they increase height and shoe size with pregnancies, I did, freaky, but I did. Now I'm 256+, scared to get on the scales, and size 22-24, OMG. I have "5" of the major health problems listed to have a gastric surgery. With insulin now, the weight just don't come off.
I've been talking myself out of having a gastric surgery for over 5 years. I'm still scared, but I'm to the point that if I don't do something, I feel that I will die by the age 50 and I'm currently 40. My doctor stated I have the body of a 56 y/o. Most people think I look over 50. They think my 10 y/o and 12 y/o are my grandchildren. This will kill your self esteem.
Another esteem killer, is I look like I'm pregnant all of the time. I get asked at least 2-4 times a month, when is the baby due. I love the expression on people's face when I say, "No, I'm not pregnant, I'm just fat". I've actually had people argue with me, because they think I'm joking. Once they realize I'm not they just don't know what to say. I tell them it's okay, I'm working on it. Plus, I have to fly for my new job. I flew last year and the seat belt barely fit. I flew last month and had to ask for a seat belt extension. I was so embarrassed, plus I think they are making the plane seats smaller, or I've just gotten really big.
Well this is enough for now. I have an appointment with Dr. Bledsoe on 5/20/11 with a tentative VSG date of 7/12/11, my husband's birthday.