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Visions Of The Future
Oct 14, 2013
A few days ago I blogged about "Things Of The Past". It was a challenge brought forth by my surgical team, in preparation for my upcoming weight loss surgery. Well, here is the second part of the challenge. What are my visions of the future? What do I hope to achieve in all this? Where do I want to be in a year, or five years from now? Everything that I hope to achieve is all a dream right now. Something that is just out of reach. Something that I reach for and feel my fingers connect with, only to pull back, and have nothing within my grasp. It's hard to think that this time next year some of my "dreams" may have become a reality. However, what's harder is not listening to what my brain is telling me. "You're going to fail. You have never been able to make weight loss work for you. What makes you think that this time is going to be any different?" After reading many of the posts on this site, I have realized that my brains taunting is completely normal, and many of us go through the same things.
Anyway, what are my goals? What is my ultimate goal? Well, I know my surgeon would want my first goal to be "healthy". Of course, I want to be healthy. I want to live a long life, to be able to see my grand baby grow up. Who would not want that, right? I think that this is all of ours goal, but its a given. One that does not need to said.
So what is my ultimate goal? I guess, the second thing that comes to mind is to be in a smaller size. Once again though, I feel that this to is a generic goal. Another one that does not need to be said. It too is a given. Perhaps though mine may have a new twist. You see, I have Psoriasis. It covers a great deal of my skin. It acts as a beacon to those around me, to take notice and stare, add that to my size 26 and the beacon becomes a walking billboard. I have always liked to remain in the back ground, to not be noticed. It would be nice to not be noticed as much. I guess, if I had to be noticed it would be nice to be noticed for something other than my psoriasis, or weight.
So, I have hit upon two generic goals. Upon thinking about it, perhaps they are all generic goals. We all must have similar goals. What made me think that no one would feel as I do, and have goals for Weight Loss Surgery so close to my own? Goals like, being able to go on amusement rides, to ride a horse, to be able to walk up a flight of stairs, to simply walk without getting winded, to buy clothes that don't look like they are from your grandmothers closet, and my personal favorite, to feel like getting up and leaving the house wasn't such a chore.
My other goal is to be off of my pain medications. To not have to deal with the pain of my back and my Psoriatic Arthritis on a daily basis. I don't want my rheumatologist's words come true that I will be in a wheelchair within the next 5 years if I don't get a handle on my weight or arthritis.
My visions for my future encompass all of these stated goals plus so many more. They are from the tiniest of goals, to be more active, to the biggest of goals, to lose 100 pounds plus. I would love to see this all come to pass within the next year. I would like to be able to lose all the weigh within that time. I am told that this is achievable if I just work hard at it.
At the five year mark I have the same goal as I do at the 10 year mark, or the 20+ year mark. I would like to continue to have my weight off. To not go back to where I am today. I would like to be that spry old woman who continues to get out and trek along the mountain ridge putting one foot in front of the other. You've seen the one, the one that you can't believe she is doing those things at the age she is. That's who I want to be. I want to be the woman who gives dreams to others that they too can be the spry old lady of 90.
