cherysh
A really long time...
Jul 25, 2013
Well, I am finally back. It has been over a year since my last post. It has been a roller coaster of emotions and events. I was doing so good. I had gotten down to 155 and a "non stretchy" size 10 jeans-size small/medium shirts. Looking and feeling good. BUT...I was in a very bad place emotionally and could not eat hardly ever because of a nervous stomach. When I cared about eating, I couldn't keep it down. I was living over in Norway at the time to be closer to my son who had went to live with his father there. I ended up having to come back to the states without him and after a very painful breakup...VERY LOW PLACE :( Once I got back here, I was still feeling low, but I was able to eat. VERY EMOTIONAL and ate too much of bad things, started working over night shift, stopped exercising. I am ashamed to say I have gained back up to 203. I am wearing a stretchy size 12 jeans BARELY. My emotions have gotten better over the last year, and I have started going for my Masters degree. So now I am a full time student and working full time, doing anything and everything to keep busy so my mood doesn't turn sour again. I am leaving for Walt Disney World in Florida with my son who is here for a 5 week visit until next summer and my parents and sisters' families. We will be returning just in time for my son to catch his flight back to Norway on the 5th. I will be starting back to basics once we return. I will be really watching what I eat and keeping a food journal on the trip. I will control and stop my grazing habits. I know I have to change...I feel sick almost every time I eat no matter what it is now. THIS WILL CHANGE!! I WILL NOT BE FAT AGAIN!!! I bought a new scale, and about to buy a treadmill, and me and the guy I work overnight with are going to start working out at work. It can get pretty slow overnight, and there is time for at least a 10 minute workout a few times each night. I found a site that has 10 minute workout videos free online. It was on pinterest...dang, I wish I could remember the sight right now to post here. Anyway, I hope to get this unde rcontrol before it is completely out of control. i am scared....
