Octobers revelations

Oct 09, 2010

Well I'm dealing with a lot of heavy stuff these days (see prev post).  It's unresolved and causing me much distress.  But I know that this is the right choice for me.  I'm an adult and have done my research.  That doesn't mean that I don't have reservations, no one knows what the future will bring, but nothing that has happened has changed my thoughts on the surgery.

So as of today I'm 17 days out from surgery.  I'm 3 days out from my 2 week liquid diet.  This weekend I'm going to King Richards Faire (Renaissance festival) with co-workers it's great weather and I'm calling it, for lack of a better term "my binge day".  Not that I intend to really binge...  I am going to have a beer though and dessert w/ my meal.  Which is more than I've have in months.  LOL

On that note I am pleased to note that I've had several food situations arise recently and I feel that I've chosen very well.  I'm proud to say that I walk into a Lindt Chocolate store w/ a friend and didn't feel the need to buy an thing.  I looked around thought about it but said no.  In the past I would have had an immediate salivary response and would have bought a bag of truffles.  Not one! but a bag.  Yesterday I walked out of the store and wanted to hug myself when I realized it hadn't happened and I didn't feel deprived.  I turned to my friend and was like WOW! 

I also dinned in restaurants (twice in as many days) and was able to pick good and healthy choices instead of pigging out of something I would regret later.

I've certainly come a long way.

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