soooooooo close

Jun 21, 2015

I am 4 pounds away from losing 100 pounds. That's so gross to even write out loud. Eww. And 7 away from being UNDER 200. Yeeessssssss! My body still looks like blobs. I still feel like I look the same, but at the same time totally know I don't.  I can wear xl and some L sizes, which is crazy. My old clothes are waaayyyyyyyyy to big to wear at all. Not even to bed. 2xl is tooooo big, like hangs so much that I look like I am wearing a dress/potato sack. I bought some size 14, and seem to wear anything in 16ish. 18s are officially too large. Still amazed by that. I started in probably a 24. Spending a lot of time daydreaming about plastics and removing skin, but I have 60 pounds to go before that happens. My arms are like their own continents; land mass floating in a sea of the abyss. Actually, fluttering in the wind like flags, but you all totally get what I am sayin. My little one spends a lot of time discussing how I am still fat, but not fat, and how she still loves me. She's  four. Lol. I gaze longingly at my oldest daughter's wardrobe, even pulled her tiny shorts half way up my thighs. It wasn't so long ago that I had 14s half way up my thighs, so seeing the hope. 

I can for sure eat more, so very mindful of portion and tracking food. Every. Thing. I. Eat. Anywho. Gotta go.

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