I've got it!

Mar 24, 2014

Had a blue day yesterday but am thankfully feeling much better today.  I think I figured out why I was so blue about my appearance...I have a family event coming up & will be confronted with a person who always, ALWAYS makes hurtful comments about my weight.  This isn't a person that I can dare dream of being rude to nor would I if I could.  This person has been giving me a hard time about my weight even when I was only 170 pounds; for me that was a good weight, I'm almost 5'9 it wasn't skinny but sure wasn't fat either.  I am experiencing some anxiety about being around this person; every single time I see them "When is your surgery?" or something about me needing to get surgery...always, ALWAYS in front of & within ear-shot of several other people.

I wonder how skinny I'll have to get before this person finally gets off my back fat. x_O Am also wondering if age gives people the right to just speak their mind without care of hurting feelings?  Is this person hurting my feelings cause she just can't stand my face? I dunno but this is not a person that I'll ever be able to avoid.  Deep breaths, prayers & positive thoughts on that day but I just know she will embarrass me again.  Got the food situation covered, I'm making some chicken salad with fat-free mayo, eggs & pickle juice to take, wonder if anyone will have some with me because I'm going to make enough to share.  I am happy today but I've got to the bottom of my blue mood yesterday, anxiety about being cornered about my weight again by someone I can't ignore. 

Have a blessed day.  I'm blessed, thankful & happy & will be in prayer about this situation.

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