Pre Surgery Jitters

Feb 26, 2014

My surgery is scheduled for tomorrow morning at 9:30am.

I'm drained from work and stressed about surgery :\  I have been going around and around in my head all day about if I am making the right decision.

I am known for making impulse decisions but when I think about it, I started this process 6 months ago.  So it isn't impulsive at all.

I've had plenty of time to change my mind but now that i'm at the last day I'm scared.  I'm not scared about any one thing in particular just in it being final.  I am a serious commitment phobe.

I can't think of anything worse than something being "forever".

I'm all packed and ready to head over to my mom's house so she can take me in the morning but I have a mental list of ways to stall going over there, because it is the start of the process of going to the hospital in my head.

I'm positive that i'm going to be nervous tomorrow and I will probably be thinking WHAT THE HELL DID I DO after surgery.  I know it's all for the best but right now my mind is racing.

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