Week 16 Hello Spring! Glad to be Home!

Apr 06, 2011

Hello Spring!  I have escaped Wisconsin once again, and am so damn glad to be home in the SOUTH! where the trees are leafing out, the sun is shining, and it's supposed to get to 68 degrees.  To me, after two weeks in Milwaukee, where the high temps were about 40, this feels like heaven.

I feel pretty ready for my 5K race on Friday.  I've kept to the couch to 5 K training program, and only skipped one workout, because it was really rainy and cold in WI.  Today, I'm going for a long jog and I'm going to jog the race route, so I'll know what I'm getting into on Friday!.   I'm looking forward to the race, maybe too much.  I find the more I anticipate an event, the more disappointed I am when it happens.  My DH's favorite saying is:  "Lower expectations results in greater happiness."  So I'm trying to temper my hopefulness, excitement, anticipation.  OH HECK!  I can't wait, it's springtime and the sun is shining and I'm going to run!

The drive from Milwaukee to Charlotte is about 17 hours, so I broke it up into two days, staying overnight near Indianapolis (where it was cold and rainy).  I slept poorly, due to a snoring dog, a barking dog, and a strange beeping noise at the hotel (both the snoring dog, and barking dog were mine).  So yesterday's drive was very tiresome.  I was alone and listened to an audio book, and fought to stay awake and in my lane on the interstate.  

Unfortunately, I resorted to one of my pre-weight loss surgery tactics to stay awake while driving...  Food.  I hate to admit it, since this was really my first major break from the program of following healthy, sensible eating guidelines, but I have to be honest.  I munched on baked lays, peanut butter crackers, and a even had a jamocha shake from Arby's.  What's worse.  I got rid of the evidence at the last gas stop before home.  Why do I eat in secret?  Is it a rebellion?  It's not like it's fooling anyone, especially not myself.  And I'm the only one that cares or suffers for these behaviors anyways!  It's not like I was that hungry.  Why oh why do I act this way?

But worse, if it can get worse, is that I felt I could continue eating that junk, and I really didn't feel full, or uncomfortable from it at all.  Will this surgery ultimately help me reign in my binge eating tendencies?  I didn't feel that my pouch held me in check that much.  Yes, I can see by making bad choices, I could easily eat myself back to morbid obesity.  That's scary!

Today, is all about honoring my commitment to myself and getting on the right track.  That said, I'm hungry right now, but resisting the urge to mindlessly snack, and sticking to my pre-scheduled meals and snacks.  I know this is not a diet, but damn, I so want to reach goal and stay there.  So if it does take willpower, then that's what I'll exercise.  

Time to go run!  I'll blog on Saturday and let ya'll know how my race went.  I'm hoping for under a 13 minute mile.  

Happy Springtime!

Cheryl  

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