Week 32 Weigh-In

Jun 16, 2010

Another week has just flown by, and I am down to 155.6! Wow, 5.6 more pounds and I will have lost 100 POUNDS!!! I almost can't believe it......... Its so wierd. This past week I have started to notice a strange thing in the mirror, I am noticing a smaller woman staring back at me. In full body reflections I actually stop, and stare........ is that really me? Is that what other people see?

I know that when I was bigger I played the same mind game on myself, just the opposite. I would slid in between chairs and such just to see how "not big" I was, and when I looked in a mirror, I seen a big person who was smaller on the inside. For the longest time now, I seen a smaller person who is big on the inside... but thats not me anymore.
 
Now I know my surgeons goal is 35 pounds away.... wow, thats so close, and I am starting to think about corrective skin surgeries, b/c my self conciousness in my arms, upper thighs, stomach and breasts have dropped durmaticly, while my inner self esteem has risen past any level I have ever had. I know if I were to get it done I would loose another 10 pounds (thats all of it) but I have other things on my mind too. Like a family.....

Being only 25, I still have a young family, a 32 month old and a 11 month old......... I want another child, so these surgeries must wait, and second to that..... shouldn't I wait til I am closer to my 30's before getting such body sculpting surgeries done? I mean, yeah I want to look good, but this is a one time deal!

Anyways, I started this tuesday..... *sigh* so I am a little crampish   I had all those hunger cravcings a week before as usual, but at least I can control and not beat myself up for craving food like I used to. I know its just the way my body works now....... 

Well I gtg, and change my tickers and such. 
God Bless to you all, and I wish you all the best in the coming week!

ttyl,
Danielle 

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