1 month surgerversry

Nov 21, 2009

I am trying to be optimistic about all the stuff happening and not happening to me but it is hard. I have lost a decent amount of weight, according to my scale about 30#. Which is GREAT! But it has been on that same number,except going up 1-2# and then back down 1-2#, for the past 2 weeks!! I am so afraid I will have put myself and my family through all this and it will be just like everything else and not work. BUT I am trying to keep the faith that it will work!
I am really quite miserable. I am nauseated 99% of the time and if I don't feel thirsty/hungry I feel bloated and stuffed. I still am having a hard time finding stuff that I can drink that doesn't make me feel nauseous. I am not getting enough protein because I don't feel well when I eat/drink.
On top of that my pouch has developed a new trick where it decides in the morning that it is going to attempt to make me throw up my toes apparently. There is nothing in my stomach but I get dry heaves that hurt, take my breath away, and exhaust me. The other day they lasted for 2 hrs! (And no I am not pregnant!)
Unfortunately, I thought I was OK to return to work last week so now I am off my short term disability and missing work! I think I am going to let my boss know I won't be in tomorrow and go to see my doctor. And being at work everyone who said this was a bad idea is snickering because here I am pail and miserable!!

BUT MY PANTS ARE FINALLY BIG ON ME! That is a huge plus!

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