Wannabhealthy barbie
What Now
Jul 10, 2011
So my divorce has been final for almost 2 months, we have been apart since February,but I can't help thinking about him all the time. I never imagined that I would come to a point in my life and he would not be some part of it. But I can't talk to him or let him be any part of my life because watching him pick up his life where he left off when we got together hurts too bad. I am grown up now, and am a mom, I can't and don't really have the desire to go out every night or run all over the town being crazy. I am at home with my daughter and I am working my butt off( I wish literally) to get our bills paid. I just feel like I will never be able to meet anyone with my lifestyle and that even if I did I wouldn't be comfortable with him. It has been 10 years since I dated anyone, I don't even know how anymore. What am I going to do? I am so scared I will end up the wierd cat lady, I don't even like cats!! The jerk exhusband of mine took everything even my car and since I was trying to be nice I let him. He also doesn't even try to see my daughter. He is completely wrapped up in his self. I hope someday he will see that I was good to him and misses me, but I will never know if that actually happens. I am really trying to work on myself and try to get to the gym everyday and get myself where I want to be in all aspects of my life. Being a single mom of a teenager is tough though. And I am the only adult around for her so I have to work my life around her and what her needs are...which is what being a mom is about I just wish that I had more time to make it to the gym :( ! But she is the best kid ever and I am so blessed to have her!
