Ahh, I am starting to struggle these last couple of days. I feel hungry, not tummy rumbling, but my stomach is not happy with me.  I'm not getting all my protein in, I'm short about 20 grams or so a day.  I saw my doc today for my 2 week post-op and he wasn't happy with me either about my protein.  It's soo hard to get it all in and I'm really trying.  I need to keep trying harder.  My incisions are looking good, one of the scabs pulled of one on the way there and ruined my shirt with the drainage from one (EWWW!!) and I got a little bandaid to put on it. 

All, I can think about is FOOD, FOOD, FOOD! I want a damn burrito, or taco, or hamburger, I want something substantial to feel full!  I think part of it is that I'm anxious about starting the next food phase which I get to start on Thursday. I want something delicious in my tummy instead of Isopure Dutch Chocolate shake and Isopure Alpine Punch. I want to add milk and other yummilicious stuff to my shake, but I can't yet.  I know it's only a few days to the full liquids stage, but I didn't think it would hit me this hard.  SIGH!

The good thing is that I'm all cleared for normal activities, excercise, swimming, sex ;)  I just don't have a lot of energy for any of those right now.  I think I'm just in this funk that I need to crawl out of!

Anyhoo, that's me for today ...hopefully in a few days, I'll be smiling when I can have some cream soups and cream of wheat!

So it looks like I missed 5 and 4 day countdown, ooh sigh, lol.

Last night me and the fam went to a drive-in movie theatre, it was actually pretty nice. It was the first time my son has ever been to one, so that was a nice experience.  I think I'm off to the bookstore today to pick up some WLS books that I've heard about.

The pre-op diet still sucks! I did cheat a little bit yesterday and had some tuna, it was only 1 gram of fat and 22 grams of protein. I know, I'm bad bad bad, but I was pretty hungry.  My weight loss hasn't moved, well, um, that's probably because of the tuna.  I'm hoping for a really fast weekend so I can get the show on the road for Tuesday!!

I'm seriously worried about losing my hair! I need to order some liquid or chewable hair and nail vitamins.  I don't have a lot of hair to begin with, it's super thin and naturally curly so that helps gives the illusion that it's thicker.  I really can't afford to lose any.  I know it sounds completely shallow considering the reason why I'm losing this weight, but I can't help it.

Argghh!! So I think today was pretty tough for me in regards to eating. I was craving that Stouffer's Baked Chicken Breast and Mashed Potatoes Frozen Dinner in the freezer. I even told my hubby that I really wanted to chow down on it and he kept reminding me that I couldn't and that I've gone so far already and not mess this up!  He's right and opted for 1 cup of chicken broth instead.

I'm craving food but I keep thinking just a few more days, just a few more days and it will all be okay. This is a really tough day for me. I went out to lunch with friends today and i had a couple of sips of vegetable broth too.  I think I need to drink some more water today and I'll be okay.

I'm also struggling with my decision to have the RNY surgery over the lapband. I was pretty convinced in my head when I first saw my PCP that I wanted to the lapband over a year ago. Since then I've changed my mind after I attended a symposium on the two surgeries. I just don't think I can deal with the constant fills with the lapband and I really think I would cheat more with the lapband that the RNY.  What I'm worried the most about is complications from the surgery ...