deerainer1
a LOOK BACK
Apr 07, 2010
Have you ever looked in the mirror and saw your past but it looked like the future. Thats were I was until this past monday. I look and I see me Fat. I see big thigs and a huge butt. Me and my boyfriend took some pictures on Easter Sunday. I saw them for the first time on Monday, and I looked really small. I have been telling myself that I need to lose another ten pounds. I started this journey around 300 pounds and now i am about 142 give or take two pounds, anyway, i saw the pictures and could not believe that was me. I look really small. Everyone was trying to tell me something I could not see for a long time. May 7th will be two years for me and I saw that same fat unhappy person all this time.
Of course the size of my clothes changed,but that didnt matter in my mind. my shoe size changed but to me so what. I was that same person on the outside. I am so glad God saw fit to give me another chance at life, to live my lofe to the fullest. I dont want to waste one more second of it thinking I am that same person.
