Another Baby Step

Aug 13, 2011

I confess... I'm a delinquent.  Haven't posted in awhile.

I still don't have a surgery date but, progress has been made.  I've met with the surgeon and further defined insurance requirements.  All my testing is scheduled (labs, xrays, etc.) and will be completed on 9/1. 

I've fulfilled the 2 support group meeting requirement and will be continuing to go, though.  I had hoped that they would be more interactive but, they are good just the same.  These groups are more presentation/informational.  There is the opportunity to meet and talk afterward but it is not a structured exchange session.  I will have to find that elsewhere and I am hoping that, in my psych eval on the 22nd, I will get more information on what I was looking to get.  Something specifically focused on WLS people.  I'll take what's available.

I have decided to join LA Fitness as they have an Aqua Fit program in the mornings that will provide my needed exercise without aggravating my knee and back issues.

I continue to hear good things about my surgeon, Dr. Smith, from doctors and patients and that certainly is encouraging.

I also continue to discover my demons and try to face my fears.  These are the more difficult aspects of this journey.  I laid some cards on the table to my mother last week and, as expected, she pretty much swept them under the rug and responded in anger.  It helped me to realize one of my triggers and why I now have difficulty talking to people about my feelings.  It's awareness and understanding, at least a step in that direction, and I hope another step on the road to recovery from food addiction.  My issues are with talking face to face; I don't have much problem writing about them.  Of course, I'm writing to people who are not family and have the same issues as I do.  I'm pretty much afraid of people so I have trouble trusting and it takes me a long time to get to know people and let them in, if at all.  I hope to change that with God's help.

So, that's where I'm at right now... moving forward one baby step at a time.

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