About me

Oct 23, 2010

I am 41, divorced and the mother to one teenage boy.  I was a thin kid, a picky eater with a mom who obsessed about weight.  My dads family were 'normal' sized and my moms a mix of heavy and a few very thin.  My whole life I have watched my moms weight go up and down and heard what she thought of everyone who was overweight. 

When I was in my 20's I exercised a LOT and loved it.  Then I ended up getting the 'norplant' (the implantable birthcontol) and although I had it removed 3 months later I was never the same.  I suffered from chronic migraines (about 5 days a week) and found myself unable to be out in the sun, unable to exercise, unable to stand noise, theatre, museums, and taking medication after medication for 2 1/2 years.  In the first 6 months of all of this I gained 50 lbs and stopped regular 'cycles'.   I was cured by the miracle of conception after 6 months on Clomid, the migraines left the weight stayed.  But then again I didn't resume my 90 minute workouts either.  Funny how once you get heavy it is so much harder to get out and move.  Somehow over the years I have gotten up to 265 a few times, at which point my body tells me ENOUGH with heart palpitations, chest pain, increased sugars, etc. 

The first time I heard about WLS for someone I knew it seemed like 'cheating'.  However when the person getting it explained her thoughts on that I had to agree.  It is just a tool to give us a fresh new start at our relationships with food.  That was in 2007 and after years without health benefits I finally got a job with them again (after 4 years of going back to school) and the first thought was FINALLY I can get my WLS.  I was planning a RNY but ironically in researching that I kept thinking why doesn't anyone do this BPD-DS?  Well that led me to more research and down a yellow brick road to Rabkin, Jossart and now Cirangle.  It also led me here to the daily support I know I will need. 

Obsession leads to success. 

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