plateau...

Apr 30, 2011

I've lost 1 lb in the past 6 weeks, so yes I'm considering that a major plateau considering I just slid into 6 months post op.  On the plus side, I can wear some 16's.  From 270 to 201 at the moment, teetering just above 200 is somewhat FRUSTRATING, but severly beats the hell out of 270.

I'm doing pretty well getting my protein in daily, I just really need to concentrate on more water..and knock it off with so much coffee.

Feeling lonely alot, residual feelings that I covered up with food for the past 10 years no doubt.  I really don't want to medicate, but not sure how much darker I can go and still function as a decent parent.  I also feel myself wanting to catch a glimpse of anyone looking at me, I've been an invisible fat woman for so long...hoping for validation that I look ok now? It doesn't happen, so still feeling fat & ugly.  Married-celibate (for over a year! hubs has diabetes problems), and climbing the walls in that reguard.  

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