Everchanging
8 Months...Where did time go???
Nov 12, 2012
So today marks 8 months since i had my Vertical Sleeve ,I'm still in awe of how fast time has gone by.I can't believe that I'm down over 100pds.I'm so thankful to god for blessing me with the chance to be a healthier me.I'm also thankful for Dr Herron and his team for giving me a chance not to live the rest of my 20s heavy.When i started this journey last august i weighted in at 474,as of Monday morning I'm down to 346.6.I was hoping to be in the 330 by my birthday which is on Saturday however i don't know if that's going to happen.The last couple of weeks I've been feeling blah about my progress because i feel like i should be further out then i am.I've noticed that i have a pattern I'm sure that most people noticed that they have a pattern.I'll lose really big every day for about a week plus and then the following week i have a big gain and that's what happen last week i was losing really well and boom i had a gain of over 4 pounds.Sometimes i wonder if i should have had rny then i would have been at my goal faster.I know that i'm not the only one that have had these emotions,I know that there are people who had surgery before me who can relate to me and where i am right now mentally.I see people who have had surgery after me and they have lost over 120 pds already, I keep telling myself that i can't compare myself to others journey that i have to keep doing what I'm doing that got me to lose over 100 pds and that i will lose the rest of my weight and i that i will get to goal.I still have about 116 pounds that i have to lose before i get any where close to my goals and i pray and ask god to continue to give me the strength that i need to finish this journey in a positive light and get to where i want to be.My ultimate goal is be a size 16/18 so I'm working towards that goal,Right now i'm currently wearing a 24 on the bottom and about a 2x on top so I've come a long way already and i still have a long way to go and i know that i can do it.
Compared to last year i've gotten so much freaking smaller and i can see the differences and i'm thankful for that,I've also start to noticed that my arm skin is starting to hang a little more.My breast has gotten sooooo much smaller its not even funny,My thighs are holding pretty good still.The one thing that i'm trying to get rid of...My hips don't seem to be going any where no matter how hard i try.So now i have this tiny waist and these very noticeable hips,When i was bigger you really didn't noticed my hips that much because i was round all around but now that I've gotten smaller my curves are a lot more define.Like i've said since the start of my journey i never want to be skinny.I just want to be a smaller version of my self,I know that i have no control on how and when my body decide to stop losing.I keep trying to picture myself being like a size 8/10 and that crazy to me to even think that i can get that small but i know with the sleeve anything is possible.Over all i'm just grateful for all the progress that i've made and that i'll continue to make.I know that i will ultimately get to my goal even if it takes me longer i know that i will get there.
I just want to say a quick thank you to everyone that read my blog and to everyone that have extend support to me ,It truly means the world to me to have people who understand everything that i'm dealing who have either been there before and can give me veteran advice cause i'm still a newbie.
-Everchanging-
