ENOUGH! I have got to do something.

Aug 12, 2010

OMG, I have gained 11 lbs. I know I know that 20lb gain.... but I never reached my goal and I don't care I don't want it to sneak up on me! Darn it I didn't go through all this to be one of the one's who failed GB. No way!!! I refuse I liked what happned way too much!

Next, if you recall I had brachioplasty back in March. Well soon after a lump developed on my right scar, well under. Dr. said it was a blood clot... then it was liquid... glad I complained.. it was infact a seroma.. a mass filled with water.. I thought the size of a golf ball.... but  not so... an egg... see pix!


I also feel like I've traded one deformity ( hangin skin ) for another my upper outter right arm is huge, then the outter elbow is boney then the inside of the elbow is a pointed piece of skin? Disgusting? you better believe it. I am vain. I don't like to draw negative attention to my self... well here's a test I guess. I don't think I'll want them to open this arm up again... that would now be freaky. Oh and I can see how fat I am!! I hate it when people say you're so thin, you've lost enough.. SO NOT TRUE LOOK AT THAT BUTT!!  Sorry that so bothers me.. I'm thinner than I was I am by no means skinny!!! 

Lastly..... I have a heart shaped bruise near my scar... hmmm let's just say it's a reminder that Jesus is watching over me.

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