gonnabethinfinally
Still trying still don't see
Apr 18, 2010
I haven't posted in a long time. I guess thats what people do when they have the surgery and the weight starts falling off. And I think thats because we are so much more active because we feel so much better. I know with me thats whats going on. I volunteer with my church now which keeps me very busy, I got a membership at Fitworks and who knew!? I LOVE IT!!! If you had told me I would be here a year ago I would have laughed in your face and said yea right! I try to go 3 - 4 times a week and heres the real kicker....I NEVER would go anywhere by myself before and now I go to the gym by myself and I love it! I still don't see the loss. Don't get me wrong I know it in my head because I see the clothes I wear are smaller, I went from a size 24 and I was starting to go into size 26 and had on some things to a size 12 and from a 26 - 32 top or 3x - 4x top to a XL and large. WOW! So my head knows it because of that but my eyes just will not see it. I still see the huge woman from before. And now its getting harder and harder to get the weight off. I have lost 91lbs and I know thats alot but I was so hoping it would be so much more by now. I know muscle weighs more than fat and I know I am still losing inches but I want that scale to move. I am still over 200lbs (201) and even though no one believes me when I say that its true. People guess my weight at around 160ish and when I tell them I am still over 200lbs they don't believe me. That does make me feel good and all the comments about how good I look are greatly appreciated but they still have a hard time understanding that I don't see what they see. Oh well one day. This has started out to be a great spring for me. I have so much energy! I am truly loving working out in my yard. I just wish I had alot more money to spend on flowers, trees, landscaping bricks etc. I could go crazy. I even mowed the lawn with the push mower instead of the tractor. It was great! I walk at work during lunch roughly 2 miles and I get to the gym at least 3 times a week unless it is a week where my volunteering is heavy. I go to see Dr. Sonnanstine again on my one year anniversary, April 29. I keep telling everyone he is going to say I am his worse failure. I haven't even lost 100 lbs yet! I am going to take a pair of my big jeans and a t-shirt that I use to wear before surgery and change into them when I get to his office. I am going to get a rope and measure it to the length my waist size use to be and use that as a belt and write the length on it and put the size I am now on it to really see the difference. I am also going to blow up a before picture and put it on my t-shirt so you can really see. The first time I saw my drivers license after losing so much weight I started bawling. Now in that picture I can so tell in my face. I can now put both legs into one leg of these jeans! How great (really sad what I did to myself then) is that! I hope he has new patients in his office that day. I remember how much seeing the change in people encouraged me when I was beginning this journey. This is the best thing I have ever done for myself and I would do it all over again. My only regret like most people is waiting so long to do it. I wasted alot of years. But hind sight is 20 - 20 so I have to be thankful for what my life is now and look forward to the rest of it and I am certainly going to do just that!
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About Me
Monroe, OH
Location
34.9
BMI
Surgery
04/29/2009
Surgery Date
Jan 20, 2009
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