Gayle S.
3 years out...still same issues
Oct 11, 2014
I am 2 years and 11 months post DS surgery. I vary from 160-170 lbs. I am hungry most of the time. I eat meals rather than just snacking, and within an hour I am ususally hungry again. My BMs are atrocious! My boyfriend refuses to go into the bathroom after I have been in there. He's had to brush his teeth at the kitchen sink a few times. I am still tired most of the time. I have taken to drinking coffee every morning & at times supplement that with either a 5 hour energy shot, MIO energy added to my water, or straight up Red Bull - just to feel awake & energized enough to work and conduct my life.
I am concerned about my eating habits as I know I eat more than I should. I eat too much salt. Pre surgery I was a sweets fanatic, post surgery I am a salt-aholic. The salt shaker is on the arm of my chair 24/7. It's more than just a craving - I sincerely hate the taste of most foods, especially if there is meat, without the additional salt.
I get bloated and my abdomen fills with gas most evenings. I can literally watch it enlarge. I have a bowel movement usually once or twice in the morning, and usually two to three times when I get home. Then I get up during the night at least twice to go to the bathroom - because I cant tell sometimes if its just gas, or something more. But even if it was "just gas" I would still go to the bathroom, because the smell is so bad, my boyfriend gags. Its embarassing.
I have my annual follow up with my surgeon's PA in November, and I am scared that I have gained weight since last November. I wear a size 10 jean, but because of my abdomen, sometimes I feel more comfortable in an XL shirt - there was a time when medium was wearable and large was comfortable.
I keep telling myself, my boyfriend and my family that I know my WLS was on my stomach & small intestines, not on my brain - but how do I get my brain to join in on the healthy lifestyle I want & need?
Lost. Scared. Ready to sincerely give up. Just tired - physically & mentally.
