Dealing with Junk in my Trunk

Sep 22, 2010

Some people call it : Emotional baggage, emotional trash, scars, hurt, pain ect. I call it junk in my trunk because I know that it's there...it sort of hidden and I choose to often ignore it since it's not in plain sight. I have decided to face this junk and try to get rid of it to alleviate myself from carrying so much un-necessary weight around. So it's now in my face at the therapists office. Last week was my first visit with her and boy was it an experience. It's what I needed...1 hour of a good cry spilling out all my pinned up frustration, admitting that I had been abused, admitting my love for my daughter and how I am trying to get my life together after the horrible relationship. The discussion tended to lead back toward why I felt that I had to stay and put up with so much. My self confidence was down and had been down for a while. At that time I didn't see it because it was so gradual...just like the abuse...it started so slowly that I didnt realize it until it was full blown and I was in the midst of a breakdown. She gave me some great advice...not to succumb to his actions, words and desires. For me to stay strong in my beliefs that I do deserve better. She also said I should read a book called "The Verbally Abusive Relationship" by Patricia Evans. That book is such an eye-opener, I have not skipped a day of reading it. Had it not been for work and other interruptions I would have finished the book by now. It is so worth the $16.75 that I paid for it.

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