I told my mother

Mar 27, 2010

I decided I needed to get away for the weekend. I made an early trip to Greensboro, NC. I say early b/c I was suppose to be making this trip next weekend. All in all it worked out.

My mom & I spent time together (that's rare). I told her the "real" (somewhat) reason why I came down. I said to her that I'm having surgery on April 6th. She responded Oh ok. I told her what kind of surgery. Then out of the blue she said one of her friends had the lap band done.  My reaction exactly; she know something about the surgery! My mom gradually asked me questions and I answered them. So I decided to ask the "magic" question, "So are you coming up?" She responded, "I can come on that Saturday til Sunday"    WTH,F!!! She is actually coming to VA! The last time she was here was in 2003/2004 for my breast reduction surgery. Do we see a pattern? ummmmm so I guess whenever I have surgery she'll come up this way; lol.

I am glad she's coming, don't get me wrong. I have to practically beg her to come visit me in VA. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I did however make her promise she wouldn't tell anyone in our family. We'll see!
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Day 5, is this normal?

Mar 24, 2010

I am so FREAKIN tired!  Is this normal? It feels like I'm "here", just here! I've been taking my vitamins, B12s, getting in my protein, etc...  

Now that I think about it. I had my therapist appt yesterday (non-WLS) and she brought some things to my attention. That through me off track big time . But her point was valid. After I thought about it, I realized my mom responds in the same fashion; "I Get It From my Moma" (the song) ha haaaa. Anyway, after I left her office I was very frustrated and confused. AND wanted to EAT! Yes, I wanted FOOD, alot of IT!!! I called a friend who has the same therapist and she knew how I felt b/c she had to go through the same process. By the way, I HAVE TO KEEP A FREAKIN JOURNAL  on my feelings! My friend knows about the WLS and when I mentioned food, she quickly said NO! Which made me feel good, but I still wanted something. Nevertheless, I didn't stray from the Liquid Diet

I was very emotional last night. I even had tears running down my face from watching the 1st part of the Biggest Loser; WTH? Could that be why I'm tired; just emotionally drained? Moma never said there will be days like these!
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Down 4lbs. w/a Confession

Mar 22, 2010

As you all know, I started my liquid diet early (was suppose to start tomorrow 24th). I started on Saturday the 20th. It has been going well. LIke I stated in my last post its a mind game, TRULY a mind game. I say that b/c yesterday I ate a plain bagel w/reduce fat cream cheese AND a turkey burger (you know ones I cooked on Sunday). I wasn't hungry. I didn't have a headache. But my HEAD kept saying go ahead you dont really start until Wednesday. It was my head!!! The bad thing is I didn't feel guilty.

This morning I got on the scale and I'm down 4 lbs. from Saturday morning! I'm happy! I actually feel lighter; like I can move more freely (if that makes sense). During these last couple of days, I haven't had any mood swings, hunger issues, or anything else that you hear people talking about. Maybe bc I prepared myself for this day. I had already cut back on my sweet teas, so no caffenine headaches. I have been eating healthy & majority of the time at home.

My advice to any & everyone making this life change, start NOW!!! Especially if you are pre-op, start making the changes to improve your life/health. Eat right, cut back, and exercise. GET MOVING!!!!
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Day 2 of 17 Liquid Diet

Mar 21, 2010

I SURVIVED my first day of the liquid diet!  You know this shit is a freakin MIND GAME (excuse my french). That's all, a mind game! I made sure I got in my water and protein shakes/drinks. I had some yogurt and 4 oz of banana creme pudding. Not bad. I made sure I stayed busy.

I feel good today. I hava a  BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT today. I made turkey burgers and it didn't EVEN bother me. WOW!!!  My mouth didn't even water; lol. AND NO I haven't taken a bite. Don't have the desire to.

Here are my stats:
2008 HW 275 (at home weight)
12-10-09 (D-day Orientation) 269 (clinic weight)
Towards end Dec. (1st meeting w/surgeon) 266 (clinic weight)
Feb 22, 2010 (2nd meeting w/surgeon) 261 (clinic weight)
March 18, 2010 (Nut Support Group) 257.5 (clinic weight)
March 20, 2010 at home weight 254

There is approx. a 3 pound difference btwn home and clinic.

I will post in a few days.



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The Count Down has BEGUN!

Mar 11, 2010

March 6, 2010 marked one month before my surgery.  You would have thought it was Xmas day for me. I'm going around the house saying "It's one month, I have one month. We have to take pictures!". lol  I took it upon myself to create a collage of before and current pics. I wrote the date, weight, and size beside each picture. There is a common denominator amongst the photos; I'm smiling!   Go figure!

My PreOp Liquid Diet starts officially March 24th. I'm going to start it on the 20th. This is to get my mind together before going to work. Last night I started thinking I have one "full" week left before changing my eating habits for good. (I have already made some major changes in my eating habits) I'm starting to have the "Last Supper" syndrome. The funny thing it isn't for any fried chicken, fries, or anything like that. I actually want a Spinach pizza, a really gooooodddd Spinach pizza on wheat crust. I feel bad for wanting this. Should I?

The next "dilemma" is the protein shakes/drinks. There's too many to choose from. Just when I thought I had narrowed it down to a couple of good protein sites. My butt starts for some more protein websites. Now I'm thoroughly confused!!! I started breaking it down by price/serving. Then I realized I had to come back to earth and STOP sweating! I have protein shakes and samples, I should be good for my pre-op. What I will do for the post-up is buy some unflavored and some more samples just to see what I can tolerate.

The count down has begun! I don't know what I'm feeling just yet. I know I do have mixed emotions; if that makes sense.
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Too Inquisitive

Mar 04, 2010

I had to break down and tell one of my co-workers that "I'm having surgery." I had to stay late at the J.O.B yesterday (and more days to come) and my co-worker wanted to know why I was still working past 3:30pm. So, I told her I'm working late for a while to make up some time I'm going to miss while being out.

Anyway, then the questions started coming . "What are you having surgery for?" "I rather not say." Then the list started! Knee surgery, foot surgery, hip surgery, "are you having that gastro thing?"  I calmly said "NO". "Well what are you having surgery for then. You know I'm going to find out!" 

This morning I told my other co-worker who knows the "real truth", what happened on yesterday. So we set it up perfectly. Later in the morning, I told the other co-worker (that knows) in front of "Ms. Inquisitive". Then it started all over again!!! So, the co-worker that knows nipped it in the bud! "Oh, I know what she's having, the surgery where you don't want any kids". I fell out laughing and looked over at the other one. She said, "ummm I didn't think about that" This is too funny!  

I didn't want to jinx myself by saying something "chronic". This co-worker is the type that will cry over someone elses issues. Lawd knows I don't want that. I'm sticking to my guns. Maybe one day I'll tell,  NOT!!!
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