"Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans"
"The Present"
The past is history, the future a mystery. But this moment is a gift. That's why it's called "the present". Member/Depac Chropra - 12/06/2003
ABOUT ME!
Married to an exceptional dad. He is, after all, that rara avis, a CARRIBEAN Catholic DEVOTED MAN. You'd have to go far and wide to find someone like that, especially in these times.
2004
01/04/04
I hoped to have the surgery last year but, I was informed I was pregnant.(no clue) Happily surprised! However surgery put to the back burner
2005
04/25/05
I WAS JUST READING THE SUPPORT PAGE WHERE LIST PEOPLE WHO HAVE PASSED AWAY..I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SCARED, AND UNDECIDED NOW.
4/27/05
I went to my consultation at the Barix Clinic. Everyone was courteous, informative...etc... I thought I asked ALL THE QUESTIONS I NEEDED TO, BUT I HAVE A FEW IMPORTANT QUESTIONS RIGHT NOW...
4/30/05
I WANT THIS SURGERY BUT THE UPKEEP SCARES ME. I'VE BEEN READING THE BOARDS AND YOUR PROFILES. SOMETIMES IT SEEMS LIKE SOME OF THE WHAT I CALL SIDE EFFECTS ARE QUESTIONABLE. BY THAT I MEAN, IRON DEFICIENT, FLATULENCE, ETC....IF I DO GET THE SURGERY I NEED TO REMEMBER;
DEVROM..FOR GAS..SMELL ...YUCK.
5/10/05
GOT TIRED OF WAITING FOR A REPLY FROM BARIX not that they took a long time, Just anxious. I WAS TOLD MY INSURANCE COMPANY WAS CONTACTED ON FRIDAY AND THEY ARE WAITING FOR A RESPONSE.. THE USUAL WAITING TIME IS FOUR TO SIX WEEKS...SO WAIIIITTTTING
MAY 05 I'VE BEEN READING UP ON THE LIFE EXPECTANCY OF A WLS PATIENT AND I AM WORRIED. THERE SEEMS TO BE SO MANY COMPLICATIONS AFTER THE SURGERY...NOT 1-2 YEARS BUT 5 YEARS LATER THERE'S DEFICIENCIES AND COMPLICATIONS..I DONT WANT TO HAVE THIS SURGERY AND MAKE A BAD THING WORSE. IS THERE ANYONE WHO HAS HAD THE SURGERY 6 YEARS AGO AND DID NOT DEAL WITH DEHYDRATION, DEFICIENCIES, BLOCKAGE...ETC...I'M JUST CONCERNED THAT I WILL BRING ON MORE DEADLY COMPLICATIONS
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO I HAVE BEEN READING UP ON THE EXPECTED LIFE OR LIFE EXPECTANCY OF A WLS PATIENT AND IT JUST SCARES THE S$%T OUT OF ME...IM AM SO CONCERNED ABOUT THE LONG TERM EFFECT
THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO DO WHEN I AM THIN;
I want to shop without problems, to wear cool and fashionable clothes. No more searching for hours till I find one outfit which both fits me and doesn't look like a circus tent.
I want to live a long life with my children.(Mood Varies)
My Kitten
MY PUPPY
I want to go the swimming pool in a SWIM SUIT and not feel HUGE and have people stare because I'M huge.
I want to go to yoga classes, dressed in a yoga outfit and not look like BARNEY.
I want to fit into a size 8 shoe not 9-10 wide width OR WEAR A STILETTO AND NOT LOOK LIKE THEY'RE GOING TO SNAP AT ANY MOMENT.
Excessive sweating, is that a fat thing?
No more, back, feet and hip pains. DOES THIS SURGERY GET RID OF PAIN IN THE BUTT'S TOO?
No more SQUEEZING INTO SMALL SPACES AND HOLDING IT IN...FEELING THE SNAP ON YOUR JEANS...BLOUSE GOING TO BLOW AT ANY MINUTE...ie THE MOVIES, THE BUS, CAR RIDE ...AMUSEMENT RIDES..PICTURE TIME, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
Climbing up three flights and not feel THE WORLD IS COMING TO AN END.
FIND OUT JUST WHAT THE HELL IS " VICTORIA'S SECRET".
Not being ashamed to work out in the gym.
PLAY A GAME OF BASKETBALL
High heels, And up-to-the-knee-high leather boots, with a short skirt.
GO DANCING
Being able to perform a striptease for my hubby (AFTER PLASTIC SURGERY)ha.
GAP, BANANA REPUBLIC, OLD NAVY, VICTORIA'S SECRET etc....SHOPPING Yippee
Future Update
Whats going on? I feel like I'm being left behind. I contacted the Barix clinic three weeks ago and I was told that my case was submitted to the insurance company and now it's a waiting game. Two weeks ago I contacted the insurance company and was told, that it was submitted and is pending right now. They said it would take 7-10 days for a decision. Called back 5 days later and it's still pending..this time I was told it may take 2-6 weeks(OMG). I HAVE SO MANY MIXED FEELINGS NOW. BEGORE I WAS'NT SURE OF THE SURGERY FOR FEAR OF COMPLICATIONS AND TO BE HONEST FEAR OF GIVING UP FOOD. THEN OUT OF NO WHERE I STARTED HAVING KNEE PAINS, WHICH ARE GETTING WORSE BY THE DAY. I'M SURE ITS MY WEIGHT THATS AFFECTING IT...I CANT WAIT FOR THE SURGERY.
5-31-05 ON VACATION IN FLORIDA...FEELING LIKE THE FAT ONE AGAIN...BECAUSE I AM (HA)IN PIC..MOM...MY DAUGHTER'S. ALL THE TIME I COULD'NT WAIT TO GET HOME TO FIND AN APPROVAL LETTER. HOPEFULLY SOON I'M BEGINING TO FEEL MESIRABLE.
6-21-05
I've gained eleven pounds (my fault)by trying to eat my way out of depression. I am an emotional eater and the pending approval is destroying me.
6-22-05
My sister In-law sent me pics they'd taken of the kids, when I opened them, I was shocked and horrified to find this one.
(PIC REMOVED) I HATED THAT PIC...TO RIDICULOUS
6-26-05
I finally heard some news from the Barix Clinic, not an approval. Just news that my insurance company has contacted them for additional clinical information.
6-29-05
APPROVED TODAY!!!
Today I spoke with a Keystone Rep, who gave me the good news. Contacted Barix Clinics and they are waiting for the paperwork to arrived from Keystone. I didnt have to jump thru hoops to get approved...but the waiting was mentally exhausting. My pressure is up just from the stress of waiting. And I'm having the worst time with my Knee...pain in walking..went to the Doctor and I'm having a million test done. I have no problem taking the tests,,,much rather that than limping constantly.
TIME LINE
APRIL 27TH, 2005.........CONSULTATION WITH SURGEON.
MAY 6TH, 2005............BARIX CLINICS SENT MY INFO TO KEYSTONE.
JUNE 27TH, 2005..........APPROVED!
JUNE 29TH, 2005..........RECEIVED WRITTEN APPROVAL!
The Stranger looking back at me
Who is That?
When I look in the mirror there's someone looking back, someone I dont recognize. Someone who's wearing plus size people's clothing, Oh God! THAT's ME!
What happened to me when did this happen?
How did I let U do this to me?
U needed all the attention so I ate.
U needed to be the pretty one so I ate.
I saw without your looks and the constant attention, U would just be ME....SO I ate.
I was scared of receiving the attention u received so I ate.
I was scared of growing up and facing my future so I ate.
7-11-05 I HAVENT POSTED FOR AWHILE BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING TO REPORT...WAITING FOR BARIX TO SCHEDULE ME. I AM TRULY SUPRISED ITS TAKING SO LONG AND I AM DEFINITELY GETTING DEPRESSED...I JUST FEEL LIKE IT WONT HAPPEN FOR ME (THE SURGERY)AND OF COURSE I FEEL HUGE.
7-14-05
I was approved and I am now waiting for Barix Clinic to contact my insurance company, Keystone and let me know how much of the surgery i will be responsible for financially...but I've been waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and ..well u get the idea; for a response. I'm am truly going through a rough time emotionally, just waiting for a response..
7-25-05
Barix contacted me and I now know why scheduling is taking so long. My insurance is keystone, through COBRA. I was contacted by the benefits department of Barix and was told I needed documentation from my previous employer, stating I was a Co-payer on the monthly premium and I was covered through said months. When this is done my file will be sent to the scheduling department. They want to be assured they will be paid for the surgery. So when I received this call I immediately mailed in two months payment and requested the documentation.
Now I'm just waiting around for the documentation to arrive. I just wish I knew about it sooner, so I could be on the losing side by now. Gosh the emotional ups and downs u can go through with this surgery!
Future Update 8-07-05
Wow what a day ...I was the maid of honor at a family members wedding. I was comfortably dressed..having a good time ..chasing my two year old ...well not exactly chasing..but u get the idea...then it was time to eat....every one was sitting enjoying the meal and then <> MY CHAIR BROKE..NOT JUST BROKE IT F!@#ING CRUMBLED.. and there I was on the ground in front of everyone. I was mortified....everyone ran to help, my husband put the baby down to help me up....I felt like s@#t...so embarassed..I hope this is the last FAT DEPRESSING STORY I WILL BE POSTING.
8-12-05
ITS 4AM I'M SITTING HEAR WITH TEARS..READING THE MEMORIAL PAGE...IM SO FREAKED OUT! OMG...I NEED THIS DESPARATELY WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ...IF I DONT I WILL DIE IF I DO I MAY DIE .....MY CHILDREN OH GOD!! I HAVE TO SURVIVE...I FINALLY HAVE A REASON TO LIVE ...I EAT BECAUSE I DIDNT CARE I HAD NOTHING TO LIVE FOR ....WHAT HAVE I DONE.
8-18-05
Well finally I have a date Sept 19 2005, found out this morning. When Barix called I was stunned and SCARED. I wonder if this has happened to anyone else. I freaked out I could'nt stay home alone. So I packed up the kids and went to a playdate. After watching the kids all day I freaked even more ..death,....complications...risky surgery....what happened...last month I would have had the surgery the next day...GOD...I even considered canceling and going for a lap band... The shock is wearing off, and my neurosis are slowly fading...damn that psychology test..should have ordered one...hopefully I will regain my gongho attitude about the surgery....please if anyone reads this long rant and has gone through bouts of indecision...please share your experience with me.
8-27-05
Has anyone dealt with the emotional side of weight loss. I know this surgery address the physical issues but has anyone handled the mental issue.....I want to deal with the physical, mental and emotional side of this journey. I mean food is my comfort and taking that comfort away will bring on severe emotional issues that I want to be prepared to handle. Has anyone sought counseling, to deal with the mental side of WLS?
9-3-05 I MAY HAVE TO CANCEL SURGERY , MY CHILDCARE JUST CANCELED ON ME! I HAVE A 5 MONTH OLD AND A TWO YEAR OLD...HUBBY CANT TAKE OFF..(OWN BUSINESS..NO WORK NO PAY)...MORE THAT TWO DAYS A WEEK....I'VE BEEN TOLD IT WILL BE AT LEAST SIX WEEKS BEFORE I CAN PICK UP THE 5 MONTH OLD...WHO WEIGHS 17 POUNDS....SO IT LOOKS LIKE I AM FORCED TO CANCEL..UNTIL I CAN FIND RELIABLE CARE FOR THE CHILDREN...FEELING SO DOWN...I WAS TOLD BY MY PCP THAT I NEEDED TO COME IN FOR PRESSURE MEDICATION...THOUGHT THIS SURGERY WOULD RELIEVE ME FROM THAT BURDEN...BUT TUESDAY I WILL HAVE TO GO AND GET THEM...
MY SURGERY HAS BEEN CANCELED YET AGAIN..AHHHHHHHHGHHHGH. BEFORE I CAN CONTINUE WITH THE SURGERY I NEED TO HAVE A SLEEP STUDY DONE ....OH YES AND ALSO LOSE TWENTY POUNDS..
Future Update
Future Update
Future Update
Future Update
Future Update
Future Update
2006
Future Update
Future Update
Future Update
Future Update
How tall are you? feet, inches.
(Note: don't put " or ' marks in the spaces above.)
How much do you weigh?pounds? |
www.obesityhelp.com |
Page Spruced up by 
5-13-05
If you'd like your profile spruced up
write to one of the HTML Volunteer’s here:
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
| L |
Luxurious |
| I |
Innocent |
| S |
Sophisticated |
| A |
Appealing |
Name / Username:
view my guestbook |
sign my guestbook
get your free guestbook
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
Photos
277
|
 |
278
SAME VACATION-My Pup |
Member Interests:
Books & Literature
Writing
Writing
Meeting People
Parenting
Movies - MY FAVORITE "SPORT" U GET IT BY NOW
Fishing - MY FAVORITE "SPORT"
Cruises - EVERYTHING U NEED IN ONE SPOT...CANT ASK FOR MORE
Yoga - Standing Position NEED SURGERY TO BE ABLE TO CONTINUE TO OTHER POSITIONS.
Nursing
Click here to see interests of other ObesityHelp members.
Surgeon Info:
Surgeon: Lyudmila S. Pupkova M.D.
She explained the procedure in detail and was caring.
Insurer Info:
Keystone Health Plan East
Add as a Friend
Send Message
Member Card
Block Member
