Life is a changing..

Feb 05, 2010

Recently, I have had some disappointing things happen in my life. I met a guy who I thought had this potential and does, but his life is in turmoil with a baby on the way. I always say it has to be the right guy, at the right time, and in the right circumstance. However, I'll never lose site of what I want and who knows what my future is going to bring.

So with that said, I am back on the bandwagon. Its funny since I started this journey of losing weight, I feel like I do have a lot of things to be grateful for. I am confident to start with. I approach people and am not worried about their judgments. I remember being a little girl and teenager and people would make fun of me so much even family members would too. It really wasn't a healthy childhood. But I was fortunate to have a great set of parents and brother. Its funny many of the people who hurt me are in a worse position that I have ever been in; so I guess you can say Karma.

Secondly, I can wear clothing I wouldn't have dreamed of. I recently went to Macys, Dillards, and JcPenneys to shop for some clothes to start my wardrobe for Spring and maybe some smaller summer items. Lets just say I bought mostly Larges and it was FABULOUS! Going into a store and getting lost between all of the departments makes me think I need a gps for shopping.

Thirdly, my health has been given back to me. I have lost 155lbs and am in the best shape I've ever been in. I'm so lucky. Had to start taking Cholesterol medication and I wasn't happy about it. But it is hereditary and nothing I can do more about it. I found out too that I had blood in my urine and might be kidney stones. I am so lucky not! I'm not even feeling bad thats the funny part, but my PCP wanted me to go because my tests kept coming out funky. So I go yesterday, and VIOLA lucky me. I have to go back on the 22nd for a cat scan. OH how exciting.

Everything has changed. I don't ever remember be hit on; I am now. I walk into a place and feel incredible. Ready to take on the world. I just need to work on my personal life and get out there and continue to date. I've really tried to remember that sometimes that people aren't always out for the other person's well being that there are a lot of game players. BUT I will not assume everyone is the same.

Its funny, this recent relationship taught me that though it sucks the end results for me that I am really worth dating and getting to know. I think for me that though I see the ThinnerJen that in some ways we tend to see ourselves bigger than we are.

I have a great career, family, dog, life, etc. I know what I want out of life and will see what presents itself.

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