Thursday 30th of January

Jan 30, 2014

Hi guys.

I would like to tell you something that happened tome yesterday. I woke up around 9am covered in sweat and shaking. I didn't know why, but I chose not to think about it. I went to take a shower. It will help me wake up and then I have to go to the city with mo mother for some clothes shopping, which I hate to do.

Interesting right? You would expect a girl my age to love hanging out in stores, buying stuff and dressing up And I would love it too, if I didn't look like a giant wrecking ball. It would probably be easiers to pushe me around than for me to walk.

Anyway...I got out of the shower and it took me 20 minutes to get dressed. I could wear less and less clothes. Went downstairs to have breakfast. I ate only a two apples and a banana. Then we went to the speciality store to buy some clothes.

I wast trying to fit into jeans for 30 minutes. I had to buy bigger jeans. Now I'm a size 24 now I cried almost the whole way home. My mom tried to comfort me, but she couldn't. I was very sad.

When we finally got home, I threw the jeans in the wardrobe and I didn't even want to look at them. I didn't even want to wear them!

After lunch, my parents askem me to sit down with them to talk. I didn't know what do they want. They were curious if I made a decision about my weight. They said "We see that your sad about it and that you struggle with it every day. We would love to help you, for your own good". I know that's what they want...but I still didn't make a decision about what am I going to do.

What do you think guys? Please

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