JessieRae
More Personal...
Jun 08, 2011
Well...this one's a little personal but...it's my blog so...so what? As you can see from my intro; I am a 21 year old, single mother of a 2 year old terror...oops. I meant boy lol. Right now things have gotten a little more complicated than I had hoped for 2 weeks pre-surgery. My son's father, who moved from NY to NC last summer, came back in order to take care of him while I have the surgery and recover since I have nobody else to care for him. I want to make it very clear that I didn't lead him on 'nor gave him any false-hope of any kind about us reconciling. However, now he is wanting to "try again for the last time". I was very blunt with him last year that the friendship we have, will only be preserved because of our son, not for future reconciliation. I did not only end our relationship because of our problems as a couple, but mostly because he wasn't being the father to our son that I needed him to be. Now, the problem is that, I have to deal with having him here for 2 months(or more..depending on how I recover) and see him not step up as a father, once again. I'm already frustrated, and he's only been here for 5 days! I'm very big in talking to my son all of the time(even more so since he is speech delayed), and his father hardly speaks to him. I feel instead of taking some stress off of me, he is adding to it. I just want this surgery done, recovery time over, so things can go back to normal. I'm also stuck between the fact that I want my son to have his father in his life, but I want him to be a good example of a man, which he is not. I'm not going to drag his name through mud because that's just not the person I am so I am leaving it as that...Hopefully things become easier because I don't need anymore stress in my life =) If you stayed with me through this whole vent, thank you. I appreciate your time =) Have a great day!
