1 week away!!

Aug 08, 2012

My surgery is scheduled for 8/15/12, and it's just a week away. I have so many things rolling around in my head right now. I am elated that my dream of having WLS is finally happening, but I now that it's so close I am starting to have second thoughts. What if I am part of that small percentage that this surgery will not help!? Will I regret it? What if I am not strong enough to do everything I need to do to make the most of this? What if I never reach my goal weight?

On top of all this...I found out at my consultation that my surgeon has somewhat changed. My doctor, Dr. Olham will still be in the room, however the person actually doing the surgery is Dr. Nwanguma. He is a newish doctor, who has just joined up with Dr. Oldham and he just fnished his residency last year. This really has me freaked out. I mean REALLY freaked out. But what can I do? Say something and risk the chance of my surgery being changed to a later date or not at all? They say that he has done 400 surgeries. I am sure these have mostly been general surgeries, and not bariatric surgeries. I am trusting in the fact that my doctor's office seems to trust him. But it still makes an already nervewracking decision that much more scary! I also comfort myself with the fact that I am actually helping others who will come behind me. As this doctor gains practice on people like me, he will be able to help that many more people later on.

I have already lost 10 lbs from the pre-op diet, and I still have a week to go. I am excited to lose more before this surgery. I want to lose as much as possible now!! I can't wait to start fitting in jeans that I haven't wore since I was 18. But more than that....I can't wait to start fitting into sizes that I have never fit into in my life!! It seriously does not even seem possible. It literally blows my mind to even imagine that. People that criticize WLS, have obviously not been fat all their life. It's a new beginning, a second chance, a whole other life,  and a new journey that I am about to embark on.

So let me end this by saying that I am ~thankful~ to be able to have this surgery. Scared or not, I am blessed to be able to completely change my life around when there are others that do not have the means to do this. If I ever get the chance to pay it forward, I will.

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