ObesityHelp

I just recently graduated from college and still do not have a job.  I don't really understand why though because I have been on at least four interviews. I'm starting to believe that these people have not hired me because of my weight. I havent really had any motivation to do much. I want to go to work sooo bad, mainly because I am ready to move out of my sister's house and get out on my own. I don't even have health insurance, so until I do get some, there won't be any sugery approval for me. I really want to start over, the said thing is that I'm only 21 years old! And all I need is $21 to get started with my health insurance with Kaiser. I feel so pitiful and I am sooo sick of men. I am starting to accept the fact that until I am happy with myself and my appearence than I will be able to accept and attract a decent man into my life. I refuse to settle for less although sometimes it's hard to do when you only try to date black men (But that's a whole nother story so I won't even go there...lol). I have never been sooo broke in my adult life ever! I need to stay strong though. I wonder how different the social scene is for women and men after they lose most of there weight.