brand new to OH

Dec 01, 2010

I was given this website by the Psychologist who runs my Group Workshop.  I attended the first workshop yesterday and felt it really motiviated me to start getting serious about the changes I need to start making NOW to be the best patient Post Op that I can be.  I have alot of fears, and for me personally I deal with that by going online and trying to educate myself thru websites and learning about the journeys of others.  My biggest fears are the skin, hair loss, and my general fear of failing.  I cant help but think that if I make all the changes I have to make then I probably would lose the weight without surgery.  But as always I would make those changes and then fall back to my old ways and gain back and feel horrible.  I hope the surgery will be the tool that keeps me going and successful. 

I am also hopeful that the change will be good for my whole family.  I worry about them, their emotions and feelings.  I worry that we wont be the same family we have been (in some ways that would be great!).  I am also scared of pain, surgery, and recovery.  I am scared of regrets.  I am scared of how people will treat me or view me differently.  I hope to still be "me".  I guess that sums it up, I am scared, yet hopeful.  I had my pre-op testing done and am waiting for the surgery date to be announced.  I am going thru Tobey Hosp. in Wareham, MA.  Dr. Streeter is my surgeon.

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