Shrinking Violet

Jun 11, 2010

A co-worker attempted to comment on my weight loss a few weeks ago and refered to me as a "shrinking violet".  Not only does she not know what the phrase means, but she failed miserably at paying a compliment.  When in doubt, keep your mouth shut.

The attention I receive makes me uncomfortable.  I've never been an attention seeker and I'm certainly not interested in doing so this stage in my life.  I enjoy my weight loss tremendously but I dont want it to be the topic of every conversation i'm engaged in:  "What's your secret?!?!"  "I should work out with you!"  I get so sick of hearing it!  I could tell what I did or what to do and they still wouldn't have the balls to do it.  I barely acknowledge it any more.  There are so many more dimensions to me other than weight; someday someone will wake up and recognize it.

I'm a size 16 now and have many more clothing options to choose from.  Again, I'm enjoying it but I'm still not enamoured with the attention it brings.  I do dress different to a degree; I'm not confined  to the drab colors relegated for a size 32.  I can wear heels semi-comfortably again; however, my basics as far as modesty and propriety haven't changed.  I've even considered just wearing "plain" clothes to work so I can just...be.

I'm looking for a new job.  Not only because of the extra attention...but I'm sorely in need of the extra cash to go back to school.  I kinda feel bad since I really like my boss but there aren't any opportunities for me.  The salary I earn has taken me as far as it can in regards to the goals I've set.  I have to go to the next level in my life and need the extra oomph to get there.  And I can get there.

10 Comments