I am freaking out!!

Jun 27, 2011

 I haven't been to the site in a few years and I am finding myself needing some support and structure so I am going back to where I started. I guess if you don't post for a while they erase everything. My pre and post surgery blog is gone. Oh well.
I had my laproscopic RNY on 11/05. I started out 352 lbs and my lowest weight was 187 in 12/06. Once I realized that is where I was stopping I scheduled the removal of the excess tummy skin on 11/07. They removed 6 lbs of skin. I wish I could of gotten my insurance to do my legs because they are just awful!!
So, I was maintaining that weight without a lot of effort. I drank my shakes still and watched what I ate and worked out at the gym 4 times a week.
Then I got laid off 10/08 and did not find a new job. My boyfriend proposed to me on 11/08 and all seemed to be going well, except my weight. My routine changed and my body was not coping well. By the end of 2009 I had gained 10 lbs. By the end of 2010 I had gained another 10 lbs. Today I weigh 207 and I am freaking out!! In desparation I joined Weight Watchers and gained 3 lbs the first week. Obviously that program is not geared to my system. 
I went back to eating as if I just got out of surgery. I went one week of clear liquids and protein shakes. Not one pound came off. I bumped up my workout to one hour, 5 days a week. Nothing. 
I am so scared that my time is up and I am turning back into a pumpkin! I don't know what to do. There is no maintanance or back on track help to be found. 

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