November 20 2011

Nov 20, 2011

Well, here I am, 14 hours before the second consult with the surgeon. I know I shouldn't have done it, but I got on the scale this morning. I'm 2 lbs above where I was 6 weeks ago. :( I know in part it's probably due to my TOM ending, but with going to the gym 3 days week/avg (I haven't hit that 4th time... with after school commitments and weekend plans, I have missed the 4th day the last 3 weeks, I need to get that resolved this week! I'm thinking Monday, Tuesday, Friday, Saturday this week...well, Friday or Sunday, depending on what happens with Black Friday shopping. I may need to sleep). 

I'm nervous. I'm a glass half empty personality. I'm terrified the surgeon is going to tell me that because I haven't lost weight with the diet and exercise, I can't have the surgery. I have not been super duper strict with the diet. I know that much. I've cut way back on the carbs and upped the protein, but tracking is still new to me. The strange thing is, the scale didn't reflect it but I *FEEL* lighter... not significantly, but my clothes are fitting just a wee bit better in the legs and shoulders. I should have taken measurements 6 weeks ago. I now own 2 pairs of pants that I still need to unbutton to slide off. Every other pair just slides right on or off. So we'll see tomorrow. Dad's going with me. I hope it's not like the seminar last month where he just took over and asked 900 questions. I feel like I've explained everything he asked at that meeting a billion times, but I swear sometimes... it's just to hear his own voice. 

I haven't eaten much today at all. I'm on MFP trying to figure out where "spinach meat pie" would be. It's a Lebanese thing. Glad there was only half of it, it was super filling though. No need for a snack tonight. Between the omelet for breakfast, ham wrapped around a piece of mozzarella for lunch, and the meat pie... I'm hoping I broke 1000 calories. I'll be sucking down water tonight...that meat pie was a little salty. 

I hope I have good news to post here tomorrow. I go into work for 12:15, have a meeting at 12:30, going to the gym after work, then home.  

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