Picked up my preop food today...

Aug 08, 2011

Well, I guess this is really happening.  I went to my surgeon's office and picked up my two weeks of pre-op diet food.  Very structured, very exact--one "meal substitute" of either chili or chicken noodle soup, two protein bars a day, and three protein shakes.  I start Monday morning.  I'm not too worried about the surgery; I'm worried that my husband will turn out to be right and the surgery will make me disabled.  I'm worried that my good times have revolved so much around food and now I can't do that any more, so how will I socialize?  What will family outings be like?  What will date nights with my husband consist of?  On our vacations we usually go out to really nice restaurants every night; it's always been something we enjoy doing together.  (And yes, I realize that's part of what got me into trouble.  Not really, though--I don't think people get fat off of really fine dining.  We get fat from McDonald's and things that we eat through our car window.)

It all seems so complicated when I get on the OH website and people have such problems.  Leaks, strictures, vitamin/mineral deficiencies.  Reactive hypoglycemia.  I've always been pretty healthy, despite being obese for so many years.  Actually, I've always been a little contemptuous of people who are always trotting to the doctor, always sick, perhaps even a little on the hypocondriac side.  Is that what I will become?  Will that become the only thing I can talk about?

I'm hoping this surgery will free me from so much obession about food, not make me even more obsessive about it.  Am I hoping too much?

Debbie

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