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Apr 15, 2013

Met the surgeon last week.  I had my surgical consult on April 9th.  My new surgeon will be Dr. Antoine.  In discussing the options, I have made the final decision that I will undergo the DS surgery.  What made the decision is that no matter which revision I chose, it will still have to be an open surgery due to previous surgeries.  He also discovered a big hernia on the lower right part of my abdomen.   It will be 6 months before I qualify for surgery as I have to finish my 6 months of physician assisted diet, my psychological and nutritional evaluations and a bunch of tests.  So much to do that I am sure that the months will fly by.  Plus, I am learning so much.  I was just officially found to be diabetic.  I am learning so much more about carbs and how my eating habits help or hurt me.  Right now I am feeling a bit overwhelmed but no gain without some pain ,ehh?   

1 more thing- I finally came to my senses(I hope)  In the last years, I refused to look at the scale when I was weighed at the doctor's.  I forced myself to look and to my dismay, I weigh 323 pounds    How could I have done this to myself?  I kept telling myself that I could tell if I gained weight by the way my clothes fit.  Never mind that I would buy clothes bigger  and  bigger and taking the tags out of them.  The surgeons office weighed me and measured my height ( I thought I was 5 ft 7 and I have shrunk to 5 ft 5) and I found out that I have a 56 BMI instead of the 51 that I thought I had.  I am upset at myself and realized that the surgery (my old VBG) didn't have the mal-absorbive feature which I really need.  I am realizing my genetics and slow metabolism  works so badly against me.  No wonder diets don't work for me.  Even the VBG didn't work for me.  I also know that I need to stay on top of this weight loss from day 1 and rely on anything but myself to make this revision work.  I really love the fact that I have a support group and pre and post support which I didn't have 10 years ago.  I give God thanks that I have another chance for change.  I will work hard on my eating changes and continue to do the best I can to maintain my weight for 6 months.  My doctor said I only had to lose 2 pounds which is nice.  Well, the journey has (re) begun

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