Year surgiversary (late) and adventures in maintenance

Jun 17, 2012

It seems that time has gotten away from me! I apologize for not posting nearly as often as I should and not being more of a presence on this board. I do still read most posts every few days when my life simmers down enough for me to have "me time". I do spend more time over in the maintenance group these days, but I am still around, even if it's not as much as it once was.

I celebrated my one year surgiversary on May 31st and have spent the last couple months trying to figure out maintenance. While I knew that it wouldn't be easy, I don't know that I ever expected it to be this hard. In weight loss, I found a routine. I knew what was allowed, what wasn't allowed. I knew exactly what I needed to do to keep myself in check, keep losing and be successful. I can honestly say that the transition into maintenance has been a struggle. I've been having issues reaching carb and calorie goals most days and have continued to lose weight. My "final" goal weight was 145 lbs. I'm currently sitting at 135 lbs as of this morning (up a pound from my lowest weight).

I never intended to lose quite this much. Don't get me wrong, I'm still well within normal BMI ranges and doing well health wise, but I do not want to get any smaller. I have been having friends tell me with concerned looks on their faces that, "You're getting too small! I'm worried about you, eat a sandwich!" etc. And quite frankly, I'm concerned at how bony I'm starting to look!

I've changed a hell of a lot in the last year. I'm 195 lbs lighter for starters. I'm starting to realize that I have a lot of work to do on me... Not just the physical (though there is that as well!) but especially the emotional. I have body image issues that I need to confront, I have confidence issues that I need to work on and I need to be comfortable just being ME and accepting that girl for who she is. Whoever that happens to be.

All that being said, I'm incredibly happy with where my VSG and the journey that it started has taken me. I look a hell of a lot better. I'm healthier, which was the ultimate goal. And as far as I'm concerned, the happier part is ALWAYS a work in progress.

So, if you made it through the babble I've just laid out, thank you for all the continued support. It's been a hell of a ride! As always, I don't know where I would be if I hadn't had OH for support, answers to questions and the immense amounts of info I gathered from the forums. So for that, thank you!

And now, for the fun stuff... pictures!


At dinner with a friend, I make crazy faces... it's just who I am


Out celebrating a friend's birthday




Celebrating my one year surgiversary! And my first drink in over a year...




All of my tequila is gone! ::Sad Panda::


And... I'm a cheap drunk, lol


Lots of love everyone!

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